I remain astonished and appreciative of the benefits to a life free from suicidal ideation (having had forty years (which included 20+ of despair inducing failures) with it haunting my every step. 

side effects:  1. a slight headache after half an hour which recedes if I do whole body relaxation and deep breathing. 2. almost constant hypomania that I have to be very vigilant with constant monitoring of the slipping into rapid speech, grandiose thinking etc. (you know the drill!)

3. Huge improvement in mood but as yet no pain relief. I have a different type ordered which is tailored to relieve pain. I will see if it works. Hopefully it will arrive this week.

4. almost complete remission of IBS (diagnosed in 2008).

5. steady reduction in med induced bloating and fluid retention I am heading back towards my size 6 which I am more comfortable with.

6. It is becoming increasingly easier to leave the house having become close to housebound over the last seven years, mainly only leaving for doc/pdoc appointments.

7 No self harm which had reared its ugly head again during the past several years.

8. I can watch movies again without feeling nauseous (a fibro thing) so long as it is on my small sreen laptop with the volume only slightly above 'on'.

The original flavour oil is bearable, the cbd/mct mix is vile and the mint chocolate one is the most palatable. I have been watching the site for a bottle of Mixed Berry flavour which i would love to try as chocolate is not really my thing. The best delivery system is sublingual which kicks in within five/ten minutes but it is undectectable in a small amount of (home made) smoothie and that takes 20/30mins to kick in. My current dosage is 500mg/one dropper (1ml) in the morning and another half dose at my usual 'slump time' at between 5 - 7pm.  No help with sleep yet but I am hopeful.

I still take Topamax but have stopped Prozac. I still have my script for xanax prn (as needed) but lately i might only take one in the week, if at all, depending on the things I cannot avoid which cause extreme stress. Even then half the dose works now.

All in all definitely worth trying for treatment resistant BP.

I will keep you posted. I hope this is useful to somebody.