First off, it’s reallt hard to understand what you are writing due to lack of punctuation. Second, I agree it is hard to talk about personal things with a stranger but if you are seeing someone you gradually ease information out and that is how trust develops. You don’t just walk into therapy and spill your guts. At least I didn’t. I learned to trust my current therapist through group therapy. I really enjoyed the sessions that she led. I was impressed by how she was able to draw out information and redirect conversations.
Meds are always hit or miss. Hopefully this combination will be helpful for you.

Also, please do not think me rude for commenting on the lack of punctuation. I very much enjoy reading my friends posts. It’s just hard to understand a run in sentence. I know I am typically visiting this site on my iPhone and it can be hard to type a grammatically correct and properly punctuated paragraph. I get typos often. Just want to be able to participate here :)

I know it has been mentioned before. O just write as I think and it just comes out. Have not been writing much usually just a sentence answer so I do not use puncuation it is a problem i have to solve thanks

Its not all that bad Byweena, write however's easiest for you. We can't all be perfect grammar correct writers. You get your point across just fine.

I'm sorry I got posts mixed up and you probably thinking I'm going a bit nuts. lol

Hope the meds kick in and work for you.

Take care,
Kat

OlderCPer Thanks You do help me every time I have a problem. I do not cut and do not understand it I may have researched it and written a blogpost about it I do not remember I have learned some about it I am very funny aboujt what I talk to with people and I have not had much luck with therapists like asking me if I read while I go to the bathroom why she felt she had to know I have no idea and I just told her none of your business and she dropped it another asked about relationships and it does not have anything to do with her I do not have a problem with it so none of your business They have never addressed the sleeping and eating problems I talk about it and they just say stupid things like oh you have kept your girlish figure and things like that I really do not have much faith in any of them helping me when they do not attempt to understand the problems And try to solve things I do not have a problem with

When I was first diagnosed many moons ago I got into a cognitive therapy group and it was one of the best things I've ever done for myself..... Within about a year it made a massive difference in my life, confidence, mood etc...

It helped me a great deal..... Maybe a therapeutic group would work better for you??… perhaps....big hug....xo

Tried that too did not work I do not think I am the therapy type I do not like sharing information about myself and have no interest in anyone else's life I really do not like people prefer to be myself and I think differently than most people