Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I have been super busy with multiple projects like refinancing our home, interviewing painters and handymen and having appliance repair people to the home. That makes it sound like I'm rich....I am not. We are currently saving to have the home painted and we are trying desperately to get a lower interest rate and length of our home loan. All of this work I have done on my own. My husband works hard at work but not at home. My mind is going a million miles an hour and I am beyond pissed off and filled with hate. Who do you call when you feel that way??? No one wants to hear that, so I have joined this group in the hopes that I can at least vent to someone without judgement.
My sleep has been messed up as well. Big surprise there, ey? So I started taking a very small dose of resperidone and I think now I'm too low. But the amount of anger and agitation I was feeling last night was off the charts, so I picked the lesser of two evils.
I would be very thankful if anyone could respond.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
"Who do you call when you feel that way???"
My psychiatrist and set up an appointment to have a med adjustment
I'm sorry that you find yourself alone, this too touched me because isolation, living alone, not caring about self and body are just breeding grounds of anger toward myself for not doing what I know I should do and am very capable of doing. This morning upon waking, around 6am, I would normally in the past 4 years gone back to bed to sleep the day away. Waking I'd be attached to my computer all day and night numbing out playing computer games. Then degusted with myself around 1-2am when I'd go to bed...sometimes 3-4 am...
The other thing I thought was that being alone, doing and managing finances, home repair, banks etc is So Very Exhausting mentally and physically. In the beginning of June I had the opportunity to buy a condo...just three room, all white, yes a good location, but So Not Me. I was in a thought based thinking process of FEAR....fear can make me do unhealthy, unsafe, or make decisions which are not right for me, or for my grown son, almost 24 now...I'm almost 67 and have been dealing with bp since I was 30, and yes I've been psychotic.
So my thought when I've been so angry...at the world...and today you've many reasons to feel rage....I think the virus, the racisms, the mass killings are enough to send Any Feeling Person Over The Edge, along with all that you carry on your plate....well, I too am doing the same as you, only I have my home of 22 years to fix up repairs, get a equity loan, or refinance mortgage, and make decisions moving forward with my life/health and my son's life and health as his autistic disability is a challenge for him to really take on adult responsibilities.
So I'd offer to you what I am doing. I started with one book called atomic habits, the premise is Not To Go Full Speed, rather just 1% per day. Just one percent is doable for me, a project, a call, a reaching out .... whatever might really be needed for me to move forward just 1%...I was so ready!!! I grabbed that one percent and haven't stopped for the month of June...I am truly amazed of all the Blessings, Achievements, and how I View Myself today, vs. the past 4 years...or even May 31 to today...even a life time of organized pandemonium of getting so many projects started, yet Never Finished!.
Please have a good chat with your self to figure out where your anger is coming from, bipolar, your husband being away and all responsibility is on your shoulders, the challenges of the house, the country unrest and virus?
What is a '''just 1%"" that you can give to yourself as a gift? Self care, meditation, a walk, music, reading, crafting To Fill Up Your Empty Cup? Are you eating properly, getting good fluid intake, especially water, exercise...even a 30 minute walk barefoot on grass doing gardening is a huge healing to your body to reduce inflammation if you have pain....to help you move forward and at least feel a bit more in control.
hen I was So Overwhelmed I had two things I think that anchored me to cement, my basement and my tires on my car. In one month my entire basement has been emptied and painted, and I now have 4 new tires, priced at 126 from one est, to the end price of 88.00 which is where i made my purchase.
My first 1%, getting out of bed, making my bed and getting dressed. Yes, I started at the bottom, and I Thank God for the people and my own efforts over the past month to bring about change of purpose and meaning in my life.....I wish you the best, pm me anytime :) Perhaps a call into your provider to establish communication for you bp...I've messed with meds before, for me, well not a great choice....Take Good Care! ml
The world is in such a mess and I'm finding that it's playing some havoc with my mood right now as well
Venting is good.... We also have a journal on DS that can be a good way to express ourselves.... Big hug.....xo
Sometimes life just sucks - what I try to hold on to is "one day this will be funny" Just not today...
Remodeling is up there with divorce and death in regards to stress, so don't be surprised - but you did find a great place to vent and make new friends!