Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
They always say to start at the beginning, but I don't know where that is. My daughter and my niece are both Bipolar 1.
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety before I turned 20, but that was in the late nineties. I have been on and off of antidepressants my entire adult life. I would go off of them with every pregnancy, up until the last one, when my OB/GYN decided it would cause more harm for me to be off of them, than to the baby if I stayed on the, (not really sure what that says about my mental state, but....). That was 10 years ago and I haven't been off since.
My father died in 2013, I saw a psychiatrist, via telemedicine, who told me I was bipolar and prescribed a medication I turned out to be highly allergic to, we are talking tactic hallucinations. So I chalked him up to be a quack and went back to my original diagnosis.
Now, after a day of raging thoughts, fast talking, and borderline manic behaviors, I'm starting to wonder if maybe he wasn't so far off the mark. The thing is, I'm scared to death of the stigma. Everyone else in my family looks at my niece and my daughter and thinks they are an absolute mess. They think that there is something wrong with them. I obviously don't! I see them for the wonderful adults they have both grow up to be, but I think I am the only one who views them in this manner.
I already am a family outcast, this is only going to make me even more of a black-sheep. "Oh, well at least now we all know where those two got it from!"
Someone, please just tel me I'm not crazy, and please tell me that I'm not alone...........
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
Summary.
It sounds as if you are much more worried about what other people think than your own health.
Get a proper diagnosis, get treatment and then worry about the rest of the stuff.
Don't trust everything you see on Youtube or the net generally.
It may take a while for a diagnosis or not..... however you can still have treatment while figuring it out
We have a treatable disorder and there are a lot of great tools to help us find that stable place..... Big hug....xo
If you get on the right medication you will feel 100x better. And if you don't want people talking then don't tell them! It is your life and YOU are what matters.
I was scared of my bipolar diagnosis and what it meant but honestly I am so glad I got help.