Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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grenadine
grenadine
It's the middle of the day... a spectacular, beautiful day... and I just woke up from a nap. My step-father asked me- what's up? He said "you've been up lately and now you are napping and on a day like this?"

I think because it's so beautiful outside, I feel sad.... does that make sense? Like the sun is perfect, the breeze is just right, the foliage is to die for, yet I feel alone, i have no energy or optimism.... I feel miserable

I wish I could enjoy it.. but I don't feel I can. Does this sound weird to you?
TwilightStar
TwilightStar
Weird? No. It sounds like me.
Sometimes when I am surrounded by sunshine and percieved "good happy things" [by good I mean not the macabre beauty I choose to surround myself with] I feel like an oddball. Out of place. Because it is not synced with what I feel on the inside. And that is frusterating.

I think that it does come from depression, but I have so many things going on with me hell if I know which is which half the time!

TS
grenadine
grenadine
i hear ya twilightstar... it's like feeling out of place. And I think you are both right it could be part of a brief depression. I guess I'll just keep a check on it.
dancingd
dancingd
Not weird at all..i spend a lot of days feeling the same way.

I agree,it's probably a depressive episode..maybe new meds?Maybe you'll just have to ride it out?

In any case,I'd consider it "normal" BP behavior.
deleted_user
deleted_user
No..not weird at all. I sleep to pass the time. I'll take a seroquel to make myself sleep. The weather here in Sacramento lately has been gorgeous. In the mid '80s when it usually is in the 100's. I isolate myself in my room and take 4 hour naps. I guess it is depression. I'm on disability so I have nothing to do. I started a new anti-depressant that I hope will put an end to the napping.
ZanyBeeper
ZanyBeeper
No it does not seem weird to me at all. It does sound like depression though. Are you on something for depression? I have had days like that during particularly dark times for me. It will get better hon and then you can go out and enjoy the weather again. Smiles and hugs.
surferchica
surferchica
My depression never announces itself saying hello, I'm here again...

I have a hard time listenning to those subtle signals like sleep disturbance...not enjoying life...or a beautiful day...physical pain...feeling blah for days on end. I get depressed every March thru May or so. I usually don't recognize it until June. Then I snap out for a while.


good luck. May it go away quickly and you feel peaceful energy.

((**)) hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sounds to me like mild depression. Just don't make the mistake of feeling bad because you're feeling low. Does that make sense? In other words, just ride through the depression and don't make yourself feel worse by thinking things like "I should be doing this or I should be doing that". OK? You'll be fine and there will be a lot more spectacular days in your lifetime.