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Angela-Boyle
Angela-Boyle

I woke up depressed after my nap today. Tried singing and dancing in the shower to change my mindset. Family came over tonight and my anxiety was so high and i just wanted to isolate myself but i stuck it out and stay for a few hours with them. Then i layed in bed feeling angry and irittable. I was getting angry at my pet shark for chasing the tetra and thought about chopping his head off wtf so i journaled about my whole day and then decided to put away laundry to maybe feel a sense of accomplishment but after i got done i just felt depressed again. Thought about overdosing on my ssri's or downing my eliquid for nicotine overdose. Ive tried several things to change my mindset or distract me but its not working. Please pray. I have php therapy tomorrow morning and then i work after. So im hoping this will pass.

kezama1231
kezama1231
Best of luck my friend.Will pray for you.Hope you get better with your thing over there, if you don't message me I'm here to help or maybe if you want to talk out your problems to someone and you don't know where to express them, I'm happy to hear from you.Anyways I wish you the very best.Farewell
Angela-Boyle
Angela-Boyle
Thank you. Still having suicidal thoughts or self harm thoughts this morning and my anxiety is high. Im at php now but im afraid if i tell that im having these thoughts they are going to Baker Act me
mlr0853
mlr0853
I really want to commend you for your resilience to Not Self-Harm and to try with so many Healthier Distractions...and to accomplish something you probably didn't feel like doing....

As far as PHP and the Baker Act, from my own perspective being in php before, I'd think They would believe you are Working Hard to change and really making the Hard efforts to listen and put into action what they are trying to teach...imo..for what it's worth....
monnieloves
monnieloves
Hello. I know what it's like to experience depression. Prayer works. I battle depression by writing down all the things I'm grateful for (my health, family, not homeless, didn't wake up in hospital etc). I realized that some people don't have good health, no family, are homeless, they woke up in hospitals. After making my list I read it and thank GOD daily. My depression is replaced with joy and peace. I hope this helps you.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you Angela.... I'm glad that you're reaching out for help......xo
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
I'm also having suicidal thoughts after a bad day. I pray we both feel calmer and more rational tonight.
Angela-Boyle
Angela-Boyle
Mlr... Yes they didnt baker act me they just talked me through it and the therapist had me list 10 things i was greatful for so she had me do what you do monnie...

Kisses... I hope you are doing better!! Hugs!

Thanks everyone!
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