Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Down, depressed, lack of energy, lack of motivation, no interest in hobbies, sex, friends, feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness, suicidal thoughts...all those textbooks definitions just don't even touch on the reality of living it today. I hate looking around and being envious of the happy people. Yeah I know lifes not perfect for anyone but it comes sure Damn close for some. I just don't want the bitterness to break me.
I don't even have words to describe anymore...just pain and tears. Life has never been easy but I've managed this far. You never know if the next second is when that light will break away the darkness again, so I keep going.. I'm just so afraid of completely running out of hope. It's all over with then.
I wish there was.some device I could attach to my head and suck the sorrow right out. I wonder what's better...being so completely psychotic that your not here anymore or being here and knowing you are here.
Its been 9 months since I was.hospitalized, seems like yesterday the feelings are so fresh and vivid. It's calling me again. The desire to curl up in a ball and forget myself is back. That Hendrix song is stuck in my head.." There must be some kinda way out of here, said the joker to the thief. There's too much confusion, can't get no relief."
Ramble, vent, ramble. Stop.
I don't even have words to describe anymore...just pain and tears. Life has never been easy but I've managed this far. You never know if the next second is when that light will break away the darkness again, so I keep going.. I'm just so afraid of completely running out of hope. It's all over with then.
I wish there was.some device I could attach to my head and suck the sorrow right out. I wonder what's better...being so completely psychotic that your not here anymore or being here and knowing you are here.
Its been 9 months since I was.hospitalized, seems like yesterday the feelings are so fresh and vivid. It's calling me again. The desire to curl up in a ball and forget myself is back. That Hendrix song is stuck in my head.." There must be some kinda way out of here, said the joker to the thief. There's too much confusion, can't get no relief."
Ramble, vent, ramble. Stop.
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
I was down so bad that I sent my two older boys a text message and can't remember what all I said I did tell them that I was miserable and couldn't promise I would be here tomorrow.
While I can't promise that anything will get better the next minute I do know you can and will come out of this. I don't know how long it's been since you've been diagnosed with bipolar but it's been many years now for me. The one thing I have learned is that "this too shall pass". Now I HATE that phrase, well, I at least hate it when "normal" people say it to me. They don't have a clue what we go through.
But I can say it in all honesty because I know it will pass. Like I said, I'm not in a much better place than you are but I was where you are a month ago and it's gotten at least a smidgen better.
I hope that you start getting to that better place very soon and that the dark side stays far away. Many, many, hugs!
Kimmers
Please hang on and know that this is a cycle.. can you get hold of your doctor today sweetie?... you may need a med tweak..x
I had my friends calling my brother. I wouldnt go to church. I wouldnt go to any family functions. i wouldnt answermy phone.
I am really upset for you. I am sending you big hurggeroos for you, ihope things can be changed for you,