Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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SoleyUnrequited 09/20/2010

I've been irritable for a few days now since being rejected after a job interview causing me to be stressed and frustrated because I have to find a new place to live soon. I'm finding it soooooooooooooooo hard to not lash out on people or take it out on my bf who is very successful, When he talks about his success I want to stab him in the eye but instead I force my mouth shit and just off my support and good luck while I'm struggling. I'm finding myself going out of my way to piss people off just because I feel like it or don't give at rats ass about whose feeling I hurt because I'm so irritated with people.

I'm so fed up with everyone and everything. It seems everyone knows just how to tick me off and I want to shout at them to shut the fuck up and leave me the hell alone. but I can't do that especially to my bf. He understands my disorder and has been with a BP girl before. I tell him how hard it is for me.

What more can I do now?

deleted_user 09/20/2010

I know exactly how that is...I have been that way lately. U just wanna scream! Today I got so ill I threw things...lol. I'm thinkin of tryin yoga

courtR 09/20/2010

have you told him about how u feel when he lags on about his sucess?? that would drive me up a wall as well, and it sucks when every one just wants to tick you off that day but tomorrow is different,
hugs to u

SoleyUnrequited 09/20/2010

I havent told him to tone down on his success yet...
It just seems everyone knows how and what to say to me to make me so angry. I know they dont mean it but I have to constantly fight back a rude remark.

Yoga? I've tried exercise and it took two days for me to quit. Cant never stick to one activity at all. Frustrating.

Sure tomorrow is another day but this has gone on for DAYS.

Suninbloom 09/20/2010

Is it possible to get some respite for yourself ? Sounds like you're so very stressed and space where you don't have to concern yourself with what others are doing might be in order?

deleted_user 09/20/2010

chill pill?

punching bag?

pillow to scream into?

hilltop you can holler from?

anything is better than a serious fight...

imho it'll just send you over one edge or the other...

xx,
beep.

SoleyUnrequited 09/20/2010

I dont need anymore time alone than I already have. I spend most of my time in my room in front of my laptop. I see my best friend once a week and my boyfriend on weekend and about twice during the week. Also have band practice twice a week...Cant afford to miss anymore band practices,

SoleyUnrequited 09/20/2010

lol CHILL PILL? Does that mean xanax or the equivalent? They cause me to go right to sleep. And I sleep quite enough as is and it would require me to remember where I put my pills because my brother goes through my things and he sells drugs.

Talked to my boyfriend a few minutes ago. He understand and is sorry about how I'm feeling. Assured him its not his fault and it's not him that makes me this way. My mind just turns everything around to seem like everyone is trying to piss me off.

Hell I'm trying hard now not to call you all idiots.

Thanks

I applied to a handful of jobs and trying to keep positive and think of happy thoughts. I have such an understanding boyfriend and soon we will be living together....lol oh boy. That will be a trip!

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