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trying to be strong

kittycat72d
kittycat72d
I am trying to be strong. I have to count my blessings and be thankful right now. I have a roof over my head,have power,have phone have clean cloths have interent that is more than alot of poeple have right now. It just breaks my heart. People have nothing anymore no house no belongings nothing. My point is I am lucky and thankful but at the same time I feel really depressed and cant stop crying. I think reality is setting in now. I have not been away from the house since last monday I have been out walking the dog but have not been to any stores or anywhere nothing is open really yet just getting power back now alot of places. I just dont know what is wrong with me. I cant get out of this depression. I cant even get to my doctors. I feel like I am never going to amount to anything in life.ok enough of the pitty party sorry. I wrote a long journal entry during the storm I am going to type it up and send it to my one aunt I trust her that is why I am writing it to her. I just am scared of what she may say about what I did and went through. ok enough babble bye for now. just had to vent a little.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I'm so glad you've survived that terrible storm... Being grateful is important..
Are you working closely with your doctor?
Big hug of comfort for you and a blessing..x
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
suncloud I have contacted my doctor she wanted me to get blood work done was in the process of trying to figuire out how to get that done when the storm hit dont know when i will get it done now. I just feel like I am sinking again I was working my way up a little bit before all this mess now going back down again. I can feel the mania starting to set in again to.
dancingd
dancingd
kitty
I think going through that storm would wipe anyone out !
The fact that you are here and talking about being down, is good !

Try and get back in touch with your Pdoc , and know that we here on the West Coast are praying for you on the East Coast.
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
thanks dancingd I know like I said I am grateful and thankful for living through this but the depression is setting in again. I feel myself sinking down again I dont want to do anything stupid like I did last time. well i am going to go back to reading my book beauty for ashes by joyce meyer.
deleted_user
deleted_user
What a nightmare it is for anybody going through this storm, but (I'll say it) how much worse for people predisposed to depressive cycles. I've got a lot of crap going on in my life but still. Good luck sweetie hang in there.
deleted_user
deleted_user
(((((((((((Big Hugs of Comfort ))))))))))) wrapped around you, kitty. xo keep venting here. you're very brave.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am right there with you on not even being able to go to the doctor or therapist (I assume you meant due to the depression but maybe you meant because of the storms.) Anyway I know how it feels to not feel like you will ever amount to anything, to feel like I will never get ahead, and will just exist and be miserable. I am trying to find my purpose and I hope you can too and I am sure you have one (((((HUGS)))))
deleted_user
deleted_user
kittycat, I go through this every morning. I wake up counting my mistakes and feeling as though I am never going to amount to anything. It is a terrible feeling. I lie in bed and tabulate all of my failures, and I feel like a big failure. I know of what you write.

Am sending you a big hug of comfort. We're all in this together.
kittycat72d
kittycat72d
ended up crying myself to sleep last night. falling down again and cant get back up:(
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