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Someone else on my facebook is pregnant. Her 4th kid...unexpected...but she's all stars and hearts. She posted today how she was on her way to her first ultrasound and apparantely she was doing something right to be blessed to have another child. I posted well i must be doing something wrong cause I've never been given the chance to be a parent.
She posted back. Aww I'm sorry. God has a plan for everyone.
I know I'm jealous ...and she doesn't understand and is being nice but I've been in a don't give a f*** mood lately and want to say just f you. I'm just going to ignore fb for a while...because this could get worse.
This is a huge trigger for destructive behavior with me because I've had a tubal pregnancy and a miscarriage and haven't been able to get pregnant since. Thinking of going through life without having a child feels like no life at all. It's something that became important to me when I was 26...now I'm 34. I have personally felt like I must not be good enough to be a parent...another thing I've failed out. When someone says they must be doing something right because they are pregnant again...what other conclusion could you come to except that i must be doing something wrong.
Oh fuck it. Nothing makes sense...there are never answers to my why questions. Life isn't fair, and maybe if it truly was I wouldn't even be alive right now.
She posted back. Aww I'm sorry. God has a plan for everyone.
I know I'm jealous ...and she doesn't understand and is being nice but I've been in a don't give a f*** mood lately and want to say just f you. I'm just going to ignore fb for a while...because this could get worse.
This is a huge trigger for destructive behavior with me because I've had a tubal pregnancy and a miscarriage and haven't been able to get pregnant since. Thinking of going through life without having a child feels like no life at all. It's something that became important to me when I was 26...now I'm 34. I have personally felt like I must not be good enough to be a parent...another thing I've failed out. When someone says they must be doing something right because they are pregnant again...what other conclusion could you come to except that i must be doing something wrong.
Oh fuck it. Nothing makes sense...there are never answers to my why questions. Life isn't fair, and maybe if it truly was I wouldn't even be alive right now.
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Hey all, i know its been quite awhile since i posted on here. Its been a summer all right. Its been something else........... You know how they say not to open the can of worms? Well a few months ago i decided to find out what my due date would have been for my first baby, the one conceived by r***. My baby would have been due on March 4th of 2006. They would be 20 years old. I was R**** on June...
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
( and i'm not using caps to be annoying. )
my reasons are different, but certainly no better...
and i am with you on this one all the way.
very very sad thing, and honestly..* i * was triggered today on the very same subject, in a completely huge way... TODAY. weird, and unfortunately all the way true.
i feel just like you describe, it HURTS *****so*** *MUCH*
no words can describe that sadness.
I heard this today and it seemed appropriate