Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
So, I wake up this morning and say to myself that today will be a good day and I actually believe it. I go to work feeling like maybe this depression is starting to lift. Well it didn't take long for that to go to hell. I screwed up and one of our customers was extremely inconvenienced. I felt so stupid about it my mood started to slip. I was instantly in a bad mood. I just started beating myself up over it.Shortly after that I started to think about an argument I had with a family member yesterday and how it reminded me of what a failure I've been lately. So, it was down hill from there. Still stuck in this rut. What the hell is wrong with me?
I can start my day over as many times as I want - to have a good day! LOL Silly, but true - a customer gets me, start over - I get mad at myself, I self talk to let go, and start over...
I've started my day over with a deep breath at 9pm, informed my Wasband don't speak : ) We have to create and guard our days and feelings, letting them run wild and not challenge them.... not really going to work.... ((((BIG HUG))))
That sentence is very powerful to me. My screw-ups and bad choices along the way were not intentional. It was just the best I knew how to do at the time.
Give yourself a pat on the back for being at work and doing your best.