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Thoughts of Death

dogwood1
dogwood1
I woke up early this morning thinking about death. Not about committing suicide, but just death in general. Things like, "How will I die?", "Will anyone come to my funeral?", "Will anyone even miss me?".

I was manic just a few days ago, and it is usually followed quickly by depression. Are these dark thoughts the beginning of it? I don't know. I have continued to think about death thruout the day. This afternoon I was trying to figure out who I would leave things to. These thoughts make no sense because I'm not thinking about suicide at this moment.

Please give me your thoughts on this. It is scaring me to death (bad pun, I know!).
rosiestorm
rosiestorm
I think it's normal to think about death. I think about it too....not all the time, but once in awhile I'll think about if I want to be buried or cremated, and where, what kind of stone I'd want, etc.
spacekat
spacekat
I agree with rosie -- it's normal to ponder death, even one's own death. My mother was so concerned that people (me) would muck up her funeral so she put it all in writing, music, flowers and all! So yeah, some people ponder death a bit.
dancingd
dancingd
Unless you find yourself becoming obsessed with death, yeah, I agree...these thoughts sort of float across our consciousness like smoke.

If you do find yourself thinking about death and obsessing, I'd call the Pdoc.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I agree with rosie, kat, and dancing. But I think you should see your Pdoc even if the thoughts don't become obsessive. These thoughts seem like they got your attention in a big way. Not good or bad...just there. But very prominent. From an outside perspective, I think your pdoc should know.
dogwood1
dogwood1
Alan 246, I see my case manager Wednesday, so I will tell her then. If she thinks there is a need, she will contact my psydoc while I am there.
I've been obsessing most of the day over these dark thoughts. They have been in the back of my mind. This is out of the ordinary for me unless I'm headed for a deep depressive episode. I just want them to stop. I've tried distraction but they are still there.
iam30113
iam30113
I try not to let my brain wander too far down that path. I obsess about it and work myself into a panic, then I can't turn the lights off or sleep. As long as you don't get to that state you're ok I guess.
theatrediva
theatrediva
I think about death often. I always have anxiety that someone in my family will die or that I will die. I was think that if I expect it to happen at anytime then death wont be able to catch me by surprise?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Death is inevitable. Try not to make it a shadow in your thoughts by giving it such powerful self suggestion that it is a dark thing to think of.

I'm more curious about what other thoughts you have designated as dark. Those are the ones that are less common (in general terms) and may indeed be something you need to deal with.

"there is a crack, a crack in everything...that is how the light get's in" ~ Leonard Cohen

light is stronger than darkness...just allow it to be
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I'm in agreement with the others.... These are thoughts that everyone has... Try not to obsess ...but sometimes I just let thoughts flow.... Death is something that we all give thought to
Autumn111269
Autumn111269
I agree with everyone else, I think we all think about death from time to time. as long as it doesn't become an obsession then you are fine. I often think about death and as long as it isn't suicidal thoughts I think it is normal. But, if it gets out of control, call the pdoc.
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