My sons and the fact that I still have the ability to give back and share what I've learned over the years in regards to BiPolar Disorder, Self-Harm, Child Abuse, Molestation, etc. with others so that maybe they don't make the same difficult mistakes/choices and take steps to get proper help.

That's what makes life worth living.

The alternative is tempting at times, but too final and too alien to just plunge into.

Learning who I am at 66 and how I now relate to the world around me....each moment is gone from the next, I wan't to open my eyes for the next moment and truly see moving forward.

I hope the journaling works.
I just write! Usually the bad stuff. What's going on, why I'm a loser.. By the time I'm done I have a plan to fix my problems.

I dont think theres any harm in rewriting some the reasons u already came up with again. Reinforcement really works.

It's a tough question Kisses,

Most days I can say I love my husband and family and friends.

I connect with many and I'm an artist. But when depression hits I become a useless person without a foothold on why I should go on living .

My work and it's been hard is to know when depression is driving my life..and why I so passively give it the keys to my car.

My son hands down he's what makes life worth living for even if I just tell myself my son needs his mom. Good luck with writing. I usually journal when times are bad but I try to write about my therapy sessions and coping skills too I'm bad about writing when times are good which I think is important because when you're depressed you could have something to look back on and it give you hope. I would say just write about your day and your feelings. You can't go wrong there.

My family. Period.

For me, what makes life worth living are my husband, my pets, my best friend. I have felt suicidal so many times in my life I couldn't guess. I hope I die before my husband. Instead of suicide, I have been considering no longer getting screening for breast cancer (mammograms), cervical cancer (Pap test) or colonoscopies (my mom died of colorectal cancer and her uncle and 1 of her sisters also developed colon cancer). When I was at age 46 they found a polyp that I had and said could turn cancerous in 5 years if they did not remove it. They test the polyps and some are harmless and some are more likely to turn cancerous. I'm already overdue my colonoscopy. I'm thinking I will get one more done maybe around the age of 54. I am 51 years old and my husband will retire in under 4 years. I don't want to die in my 50s. After that, I have mixed feelings.

I think that we are often grateful for the same things over and over again because they're so special

It's good to be aware of the all of the things that we don't think of as big because they're there for us all of the time and we're so fortunate

Running and clean water to drink and use.... Imagine all of those who do without it and how terrible that would be as an example.....

I've heard really good things about journaling … I've not really gotten into it unless I'm in a bad place on here but I'm grateful for it when I need it.... Big hug....xo

Finding Gratitude here and there - sometimes my dogs, or foster dogs - sometimes friends I can count on that accept me. Also reminding myself even though I feel terrible - this will pass, and I just have to hold on... to a dog or a friend LOL

My hope in Christ and his plans for my future