okay, it's alright.. of course that was not okay, and not okay to see.. but you are going to be alright. i am SO sorry you had to see that..
there has got to be a way for you to understand, in order to get over this, that nothing is real on this plane that we exist in.

what you saw, is not real. all that is bad in the world, is not real.

one way i know this, i died and came back to life once.. in this life. we have many lives.. i don't care what anyone tells you, it's true. i don't care what your religion says, it is true.

this is a devastating thing to witness, and there are many young children and others who have seen this and more, and they have survived and got through it.

you are going to need to find a counselor that you vibe with right away, you can learn or do the tapping technique, too.. to help you with this.

i am truly sorry, and i may sound like some hippy or fruitcake, but this life is not the extent of your existence, or anyone else's..
who knows, you may have had to see that for some out of left field reason, that we all don't know yet, like to help someone else who experiences something similar.

i am really sorry, and you should find someone to talk to about this.. but when i was having bad mania this wise woman told me, none of it's real.. and i know it isn't.. i don't know if that can even help you right now, and i know it is something you are just going to have to release the best you can.. i will think more on this

i cant get the scene out of my head it keeps replaying and im starting to hallucinate about it the blood brains and bits of skull are everywhere its like they are on my hands and the damn voice wont shut up

that look in his eyes he was crazed and afraid of something his body was just laying there a hole in the back of his skull

I wish I could agree that none of this, that, or anything of this world is real, but I know it sure feels real and I'm sure that experience felt extremely real. (No offense meant to lionne). You should definitely told to a counselor about it. If you are religious, pray. If you aren't religious (even if you are, actually), try to meditate and think of things in your life that have brought you joy. Spend time with people that will help keep your mind off of this terrible event (you don't have to tell them what you are trying to keep your mind off of if you don't want to). I know much of this falls in the 'easier said that done' camp because I have times when I am inconsolable to any method of coping but it might help.

he keeps saying why didn't you try to stop me i couldn't there wasn't enough time to say a word all of 2 seconds and bang his brains were everywhere

Jesse-

I am so sorry. I have no idea what to say to a person that is in this much distress. I can't even imagine. Please know you did nothing wrong and not feel guilty. I know it is easy for me to say. Do you have anyone you can talk to at this time? What about a crisis center? I don't know how they would handle it though. I so wish I could help you right now. - Suzanne

Hey Jesse.....Language is accepted here for what you witnessed. There is a reason for everything and everything for a reason and there are some posts I have read screaming out for help before they do the same. I know if I have read this, they have to, and maybe if you can realize the impact your own post has and will have on us here it can help you understand why you witnessed it. Add me as a friend if you'd like. I have big ears and a big heart. Know that I am sending you love and hugs, hun, and am sorry you had this experience.

i definitely think you should pray about it.. i would choose Christ to pray to, personally..

all i'm saying is, though it looks real, it's not.

everything here is impermanent, besides our souls, those go through many incarnations... what IS real is LOVE and our connection to GOD

everything else is not real. not.

ok so i just found out its someones idea of a joke to do shit like that it was all faked now im just fucking pissed the hell off

Hi Jesse~~

What a very sick joke. Sorry you were a part of it.

Perhaps replacing horror with anger will help you get past it quicker. I know, for me, having the culprits identified and dealt with properly by authorities would allow me to dust my hands and move on.

Hang in there.

Jesse- I am so glad it was a very sick and twisted joke for your sake and like Baby said hopefully that anger will help you deal with these crazy emotions. I am so sorry you went through that turmoil because of some very sick joke. I sure hope they are held accountable for this. Thanks for posting this news. I was really worried about you,- Suzanne