This is a bit of a TMI but relevant to the incident.

Last night BF and I were having sex and the baby started fussing (real cock blockers babies can be). I went to go check on him, turns out he was hungry so I fed him. In the middle of feeding him I was just so consumed by emotion I started crying. Not full on sobbing or anything dramatic but there were tears. I couldn't understand what it was about, I still can't say exactly what I was feeling.

Went back to bed and continued with BF but then I felt myself dissociating again ( I hate using that word so much). It felt like my body was vibrating and glowing and a part of me was pulling away, breaking off. My thoughts were muddled, I was trying to catch my breath, my hands were just moving above me as though they were being controlled by some external force. I managed to tell BF to stop and just clung to him trying to stay... grounded. He asked if I was ok while I was panting and shaking (vibrating). I felt ecstatic and weepy, alive and dull, the whole room felt like it had fallen away and the moon was glowing from within me.

I don't know what the heck happened to me but it was the most bizarre thing ever. I wanna make an appt with my tdoc but frankly I'm all talked out. I need to try something else now.