I went to the bank to lodge a cheque- for the first time, and I was so nervous. I was just lodging a cheque! My hands were shaking, I was feeling all jittery, my heart was pounding and I kept double checking to make sure I wrote the information correctly. This is something I notice happens a lot to me and I hate asking for help because I don't want to feel useless. Why do such simple things have to be so hard for me? It's rather frustrating. What makes it so much worse is when I'm doing something for the first time and whomever is in charge asks me if I'm sure that's what I want to do- even if it's basic protocol to do so. Then I start second guessing myself and worrying that I somehow screwed up and it will result in some great catastrophic event like the end of the world. Until there is some clear sign that I successfully completed the task t hand with the desired results I will just sit a worry about it. Sigh.
Well I can stop worrying about the cheque cos my account has been updated. Until the next time I do it, that is.