Seems like the first emotion is grow cold in me is love. I've been on a new antipsychotic and ever since it began, I've been feeling so numb and a lot stronger than normal. Things that normally make me cry just don't anymore. And things that actually rightly call for some sadness just don't produce a tear from my eyes. Is it better this way? And are our emotions ever what we want them to be. Do we have a choice to feel a certain way, or is it completely determined by the control of medication? Currently, I can't feel love. Inside and out I'm trying to squeeze out of my heart some love and care. I know I love what and who I love. Why can't I feel it? Can't feel anything.
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