Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I've decided to spend thanksgiving alone. I can't put myself at my mother's mercy. I was invited to my aunt and uncle's house but I don't want to because there will be 80 people crammed in b a small house. I'm going to lie and tell my mother that I'm going to to go there and just go out for dinner somewhere alone. I am feeling very bad about my weight. I don't like people seeing me eat because I feel like people are judging me. I just want to be alone. I hate myself and Noone wants to be around me, I'm sure.
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I did the dumbest thing today. I charged my earbuds, unplugged the block and put the block in my little bag instead of the earbuds. I wasn't happy about that when I got to the gym. What a dummy!
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
Don't mind me. Just opining. Although. . .
That biz about hating yourself and being sure no one wants to be around you seems worthy of an opine as well. . .
Keep sorting, TC. Your answers are in there.
To put a more positive spin on your thinking, like Arfie I think your depression is clouding your opinion of yourself and how others view you and relate to you. I also agree about being honest with your Mom, simply to empower yourself and maybe wake your Mom up about how you are thinking and feeling about spending time with family. Perhaps you could go over and have dinner after the crowds are gone and spend time with your Aunt and Uncle/Mom.
Weight issues are So Hard to deal with due to medications we take and the emotional upheaval we can live with due to bp and the world at large. Sadly you are right about Some people, but thinking you are really mad at yourself and want to make a change and feel overwhelmed starting. Please come and join me and Spacecat, so far, as we work to change our lives due to bp challenges of food and exercise.
A while back, I requested a friendship with you, so You Do have friends here at Ds :-). Take care, and have the best day you can! ML
I understand not wanting to be with family and I understand wanting to be alone....I'm sorry you have to spend so much time alone.