a few of you said you would sit with me and that its ok to share my feelings. I am sorta shy about this but i am going to do it anyhow. I have bipolar disorder(thats a given right) i also suffer from extream migraines and chronic daily headache. there is a longer list but lets just say i feel like the poster child for difficult disorders. I feel like everyday there is somehting taken away form me. The bipolar disorder treatment with previous ect has taken my memory, my loss of sight has taken away a clear picture and replaced it with elements i cannot see and mmigraines take away for my time with my family. I just want to stop it all. sometimes death feels so close to me and like the one thing i could do right. I know when i am clear headed that that is not the route to go. I want so badly for my husband to just sit with me until i fall asleep, another thing i havent been doing much of. when is it all going to just stop?