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TC40
TC40

So I start a (another) new job on Monday. Today is my last day at the job I've been at since early February. I had to find something else because wasn't making enough to live on.  I couldn't afford to pay my rent. I was about a month away from being homeless.  I really liked the job, but I need a roof over my head. 


I was fired from the job before that (in February as well as several others since 2015) due to "not catching on fast enough". I am TERRIFIED of another failure. When I told my dad I found a better job, he really hurt me. He said "are you going to be able to do the job"? When I asked him what he meant by that, he rubbed my nose in my job failures. I'm already feeling insecure enough and him saying that was a low blow. I haven't really had much contact with him in almost a week because of it. 


I don't know what I will do if I fail again.  I'm TERRIFIED by it. Any advice?


I'm really second guessing myself. 

Estragon
Estragon
You know your capabilities far better than your father. A key problem I have when starting a new job (which I am about to do as well) is staying up late trying to stay distracted. I have to guard my sleep cycles carefully in order to learn the ropes of a new occupation. If you have an idea what has gone wrong in the past, try to draw on that experience.
TC40
TC40
Thank you for the advice!!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Try not to beat yourself up TC.... You don't deserve that...… Maybe also do some light of heart things for the next few days

Watch some comedies.... take a few walks.....bubble baths

All we ever have is one day at a time.... Try not to look for trouble where there isn't any sweetie..... Big hug....xo
mlr0853
mlr0853
I'd think about the 'fact you were hired' rather than your father and ""the past""". Your new employer would not have hired you if he/she didn't feel you were qualified for the position and that you showed competence to fill their need during the interview.
patti22
patti22
" I was about a month away from being homeless. ".....and you DID something about it.


No matter what else happens....give yourself some credit!!! Life is full of failures, getting back up again is hard....and you are DOING that.

Breathe, breathe, breathe....and remember if this doesn't work out, you HAVE the skill and courage to pick yourself up again...and that's huge.

Patti
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
You don't know how it will go until you give it a try....right? Give yourself a break, think positive and do your best. That is all you or anyone else can ask of you.
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