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Tell me why.........please.

ZanyBeeper
ZanyBeeper
I mean I know it is my PTSD being fueled by my BP or vice versa, but WHYYYYY?? My intrusive thoughts have come back. They seem to be affected by any extra medicine that I take. For instance, I started on a pain pill the other day that I received from a friend..............morphine. Last night in the bed, the thoughts and gross voice were coming and every time I tried to close my eyes and go back to sleep, I would feel this smothery feeling in my chest and like I had a weight on it. I was trying to have an anxiety attack I think. I know it wasn't my heart. So........now I am sworn off that particular pain medicine. I am already jacked up on 8mg/day of Risperdal. That is a pretty hefty dose. I just don't know what to do. I will kill myself before I entertain many thoughts of hurting Dillon. But, I don't want to die. Not by a long shot. SIGH. Why does this have to be happening to me? Just when I think I am going to be stable for a while, something fucked up happens. Thanks for listening guys.

Hugs,
Me.
bbipolar
bbipolar
So sorry, what terrible time. Did you call your pdoc?
angeleyes92
angeleyes92
getting pills from a source other than your doctors is never a good idea. they know what mixes with what. the morphine could have caused a reaction to another med you take. mixing meds is a dangerous thing and needs to be done under a doctors care. i know it doesn't seem like a bad idea but I know just with the different meds that I take that there are some over the counter items that i can't touch or else I'm looking at a trip to the ER.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Aw Zaney, I come back and I hate to hear you are struggling like this! I will spare you the lecture on taking meds from friends... but I will say that morphine is pretty strong stuff and it may take a while for your brain to rebalance itself after that. I hope in a couple of days or less you will feel better. That smothery feeling is like what I felt when I od'd on painkillers, only it made me vomit. I'm glad you are swearing off it.

Keep talking to us next time you feel panicked instead of resorting to extremes. I know I would have done some pretty bad things had I not had this place to turn to.

(((hugs)))
Alice
deleted_user
deleted_user
I'm sorry this is happening to you. Hang in there!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Morphine can cause confusion and disorientation.,. its the stongest opiate available in North America....
mixing meds like this is whats hurting you sweetie... especially if you are'nt usually on it..
Your friend isn't doing you any favours. If you are still in severe pain I think you should talk to your doc
I hope you soon feel better special lady, this should pass as the morphine leaves your body xx
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey Chelle, this is stinky news. Hopefully it was just the morphine mixing with something else you're taking. Give your system some time to work through it. In the mean time, get your Bible out girlfriend and do some reading!! Psalms....they will comfort you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
My brother also has a bad reaction to morphine. Hopefully once it gets out of your system you will feel better.
vickybea
vickybea
please stop the morphine hun its strong stuff hopefully like others have already said once it leaves your body you will stabilise tell your pdoc you may need more help right now.
mermaid123
mermaid123
Zany I am so sorry to here that you are going through such a bad time.

Listen to the advice given and hopefully you will start feeling better.

(((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))
deleted_user
deleted_user
I'm so sorry you are having a tough time Zany. I agree with others. The morphine probably interacted with a medication you are taking. I know I have those problems with vicodin - even without any other medications.

Good luck. I hope you feel better soon.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh maaaan Zanny, look aout for thoughs pain pills. I was put on them for an injury and my fybromialgia, they totally ended up sending me to hospital. I got so down and the bad thoughts wold not go away. Not until I got off thoughs.
Morphine is way strong too, be careful. I would call you doc and see what to do for sure.
xxxxPinky
ZanyBeeper
ZanyBeeper
I used to take morphine for my back pain years ago and Oxycontin too for a couple of years, but I was not diagnosed or symptomatic of the BP or PTSD at that time either. SIGH. Thanks so much for the replies guys. Yall rock.
vickybea
vickybea
lt could be that your body has just changed its tolerance level towards it or that the morphine has acted as a trigger meds can and definetly do or it could be reacting with any of your bp meds, feel better soon hun.
deleted_user
deleted_user
C'mon, Zany, leave that stuff alone. I know it seems like a good idea at the time, but as everyone here has said taking your friend's meds is not a good idea. I know this from experience. I tried to od this fall by taking a bunch of hubby's vicodin and then drinking alot of alcohol, and while it didnt kill me, it sure fucked me up good for several days. I know even one pill can sometimes interact with the other meds we are on. That may be where your intrusive thoughts and anxiety were coming from. You're a good friend and I want you to feel better soon. "Tinks"
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