Barton, I truly dont want to say the wrong thing here. My heart wants to appeal to you to please just let those types of thoughts and feeling let them pass thru and don't make any decisions on them. I've made a plan and carried it out some time ago but I damaged myself and lived.life's not real grand for me right now, Please contact your dr please.

I'm so sorry you're feeling like you have to make this kit.... like it will give you some security. I have done it before.... not with guns and such, but other things. But once I felt better, I took the kit apart and got rid of the things I could. I hope you will end up feeling that way soon - like you don't need or want the kit. I also think talking to your t and pdoc about this would be a good idea. They need to know how bad you are feeling.

hi, please contact your doctor or one of the suicide lines here

http://www.dailystrength.org/help/crisis-resources

Big hug for you bbarton....I decided many years ago to take suicide off of the table

So my 'suicide kit' is recognizing that it's part of my illness and if the thoughts go on for very long I know I need to call my doctor

We all have the thoughts bb... I have them and they can seem so powerful and sensible at times.... I just realized that they're part of an illness... A symptom and illness needs treatment

Will I always be able to do this if the thoughts are overwhelming... I just don't know... BUT I'm not going to surround myself with guns in order to find out... I think you're making a big mistake sweetie IMHO.....

Why test it or prepare for it... Instead why not make a plan of what to do if you have suicidal thoughts since you have a disorder that has this as a symptom?... Big hug for you and a blessing....xo

I vote for the problem being your own sick mind, and that can be mended. For many years my kit has consisted of a chocolate sundae and a chocolate malt. They truly illustrate that life is worth living, but you have to decide. Have some consideration for what you leave behind. Shotguns are very messy.

I know exactly how you feel and yes I always have a plan ready to go and my pdoc knows this. the difficulty is that it is damn hard to kill yourself even if you try very hard, barbiturates are not going to do it and might cause brain damage or other things (my brother fell while attempting suicide after taking a shitload of pills and is now quadraplegic) I personally have tried almost everything one could think of and almost suceeded several times but never get there. pdoc keeps telling me it is not my time. i've even survived a car accident and anaphylactic shock in the last number of weeks. shotguns can missfire and do a lot of damage. none of us would want any of that for you. nor would you. come on here and post when the bipolar starts lying to you and there will always be someone to listen so you wont need to activate your plan, call a helpline, talk to your pdoc. have a plan of help in place to replace the plan of destruction when ideation rears its ugly head. i know it is easier said than done but we are always here when you need us. big fat hugs to you. and no it is not just you alone thinking these thoughts. bipolar is the biggest liar to us all!!

Are you kidding? Why are you looking to suicide as the answer instead of MEDICATION?
Suicide is final...there are no second chances. Meds can fix bipolar.

I feel soooooo much. Just hang on what we go through is hard. But you are worth it you are valuable even if you don't feel it. You will prevail you will make your mark on the world. You are a survivor no one understands how hard this shit is. I have seriously considered by a revolver but for what. Fuck people. Live life till Jehovah takes you naturally. There will be good times and bad. But you are a beast because you made it this far when your GOING THROUGH HELL KEEP GOING throw out that dam kit in a lake and smoke blunt and be easy that you are WORTH IT DAM IT

I used to be suicidal too but it took strength support and ridding my head of that thought that keeps me going,knowing that people care for me and are willing to help me thru things is amazing man dont let your depression get to you join a church take up a hobby distract yourself from those thoughts that get you down.think about all the people that care ,would you want them to find you that way ?

I have a plan. It is something that is always with me. I understand BUT there are other options. Peace be with you.