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I had one of those dreams last night that just shatters any good mood you may have.
In it I was blissfully happy. Everything was going great. I was surrounded by people from my past that I care about, having a good time. I was even in love again. Unfortunately, even my subconscience knew it wasn't real. I realized I was dreaming, that things aren't like that right now. My dream did a complete turn around. The people faded, my love went up in flames (not literally) and I soon found myself wandering the streets of my old neighborhood alone.
I woke up with those images burned into my mind and the only thing I could think was, oh right...
Now I'm in a crappy ass mood, which is annoying, because for the past two weeks my moods have been pretty good. I'd been feeling really positive, even hopeful, but as of right now that's kind of shot to hell.
Stupid f*ckin dream... don't you hate it when shit like this happens?
In it I was blissfully happy. Everything was going great. I was surrounded by people from my past that I care about, having a good time. I was even in love again. Unfortunately, even my subconscience knew it wasn't real. I realized I was dreaming, that things aren't like that right now. My dream did a complete turn around. The people faded, my love went up in flames (not literally) and I soon found myself wandering the streets of my old neighborhood alone.
I woke up with those images burned into my mind and the only thing I could think was, oh right...
Now I'm in a crappy ass mood, which is annoying, because for the past two weeks my moods have been pretty good. I'd been feeling really positive, even hopeful, but as of right now that's kind of shot to hell.
Stupid f*ckin dream... don't you hate it when shit like this happens?
The people that were present in the dream were from a time period of my life that just recently ended. I made alot of mistakes during that time, most of them involving over drinking and the behavior that comes with it, and I've been having trouble accepting that I can't undo or fix what I've done.
I know only time will help and I thought I was making good progress on letting go, so having that dream kinda threw me.
Yes, I am on meds, but I recently ran short and didn't have the money to get more until today. I was taking my meds every other night, instead of every night, in an effort to avoid going several days without any. Last night I didn't have any left to take. That's probably why that dream was so intense and why I was so easily put into such a bad mood.