I am really struggling with meds right now. My therapist had me inpatient in a step down center to help with a med adjustment and it has been a real struggle. I am home now and still not doing my best. I know the problem is the stimulant that I am being perscribed to deal with the binge eating. It helps to control my appetite and it really works. I am down 26 lbs this month. It also is helping me with the desire to smoke, as in there is no desire to light up. I have been cigarette free for seven weeks now (I am also using the patch for the physical cravings). This morning I woke up hypomanic and now I am crashing. I am having the ups and downs on a daily basis and that is new. I am used to my long cycle. This time of year I should be more down with no highs. I saw my therapist yesterday when I was released from the center and was doing good. We have been tracking the mood swings and he is well aware of what I am gong through. He is confident that I can handle myself on my own and that makes me believe that I can do it. I just really hate the ups and downs. There is also a constant anxiety. Right now I feel like I am ready to jump out of my skin. This is normal with the stimulant. I know that all my meds are on the right dose and I know that this will not last forever. I am only on the stimulant fot about six months while we work on the binge eating in therapy. We are working on the trauma and emotions that relate to my eating. It is easier to talk about without the desire to eat. I am proud of how well I am doing with this right now. We had a few breakthroughs while I was in the center. The medical team I am working with for my weight loss surgery is working with me and I start a support group for eating disorders next week.

Sorry to go on so long. Just a lot going on right the moment.