You’re in a rough place at a rough time of the year. This is when you should be working closely with your mental health team, meaning your therapist and psychiatrist. Don’t underestimate the influence of good self care. Love and hugs to you.

It’s hard getting into a t-doc right now. Everyone is months out.

Sometime I just hate bpII

The BP road is long and hard until you find a curve to help you get un lost. It can be done, kisses is right on target with self care...that is huge. Being dehydrated, not having enough vitamin D/B, your thyroid can all influence your depression level. If you can, start slowly and drink half your body weight in water each day, fruits and veggies, some protein will help your body stay balanced...carbs can give you spikes, but are not filling...so the running to the fridge for 'sweet' is so easy. If you can, even walking for 15 minutes a day will help, going to a mall and walking, being around people and not isolating...you might even find a job in some retail store :).

Really sucks to be so depressed, then to hospital, been there done that...one small thing I'm doing now that has helped me So Much...I'd stay in my pj's all day if I had no where to go...No More...I put my cloths out the night before, then get in them first thing in am...

Hoping you;ll find something to give you some hope and energy...I like watching utube stuff and listening to motivational music...don't have tv. All the best to you!

Thinking of you. I'm not sure where you are located but if appts are that far out you need to see the emergency doctor. You have to fight your way out of it... It's tough but you can do it..

Big hug nightfire….. I would continue to work with your psychiatrist at finding the right med combo...

Are you seeing him/her regularly right now?

Welcome to the board.....xo

Thanks for all you support. I do see my p-doc pretty regularly but she’s out of town right now. I force myself out of bed in the mornings but don’t feel like going anywhere and if I do all I want to do is spen money and I have only a couple hundred left. I’m not even buying a tree this year so it doesn’t feel like Christmas. We do a secret Santa with the fam and I can’t even participate in that. But I’m trying to think of one positive thing each day. I’m looking for a t-doc that is self pay and doesn’t cost that much. I’m getting insurance but it’s $700 a month. I don’t mean to seem that I’m complaining. I am grateful I have a family that supports me and a roof over my head but it’s hard leaning on people bc I don’t want to seem like a burden.