While it's good to put on a happy face it's also good to show that you're upset and in pain. That's one of those things you get to decide. Why does it always have to be something, especially when the something is unpleasant? I hope things settle out soon.

i know what need to do to alleviate the situation i need to get my life together and move out of my parents house

Glad your coming out of it - I moved out at 18, lol never to return, have no idea how you do it!

But if its free - and your miserable, I'd try and be grateful - its free! Kiss ass for calm and peace, with no bills? Fake it buddy, makes things easier!

Gratitude always helps - but brown nosing, doesn't hurt - when its free rent and food : )

Sorry, bumsen. It's no fun living with your folks as an adult (I've done it), and I know how you feel about being upset and staying in your room and stuff when 'crap' happens between you and family

I used to do it - partly because I felt Guilty about whatever had happened - even if it wasn't my fault - and partly because it's just Hard to "get over" what you were feeling during the argument..

That's a long time to stay zoned-out in your room, but I hope you are feeling better each day....if you're going to have to live there for a long time, you need to tell your pdoc and therapist how hard it is for you, so they can either adjust meds to help, and/or make sure you get to Vent with them more.

Huggggs -

well my dad basically scarred me for life on tuesday it was a very traumatic event

i sure as hell dont feel sorry now im gonna let my dad deal with the guilt

Scarred as in a wound? Or turmoil?

turmoil he is undiagnosed bipolar and he is on an anger pill but he ran out of his meds over a week ago and he cant get into the doctor til july if i have to remain quiet around him thats ok with me but at the same time im walking on egg shells around him sometimes

ah, well - you need to accept HIM - fucked up or not, at least accept him and his anger crap, in his house..... so sorry it sucks, I know!

no he did more that just emotionally abuse me that night but physically too

You know - I had to learn to change my thinking... a tdoc one time was listening to me Devastated over a fight with my brother...

She said - and I always remembered - "Gina, could you just be Upset?" Changing the words in my head, helped ME!

(((BIG HUG)))

but not bad enough for you to leave............................

it sucks my friend, it sucks - glad your here, you are not alone!!!!

yes it is bad enough to leave beleve me he has been a p.o.s. father my whole life