I think I've figured something out. Besides having been on the wrong meds., I've been suffering from a lot of stress. There were a lot of high stress events that happened this past year. I think I let is all pile up on me until I crashed. I'm doing a little better now but still have crying spells in the morning. I believe it is because early in my morning my son who has ADHD and Aspergers starts yelling for me early in the morning. He starts ordering me around like he's king of the house. Depending on what it is, it sometimes ends up in an arguement. He is a very demanding child. He is getting little more compassionate but it is like he tries to hard. I try to explain to him that I need rest sometimes and he seems to understand. A few minutes later he's bothering me about something.
I feel very worn out. I know life is stress but this year had a ton of it.
I don't think my pdoc can do much more for me at this time. She put me back on the proper meds. and gave me someting for anxiety. I try to use those sparingly. It's up to me to handle stress properly to get better.
This last year I was handling stress all wrong. I was taking chances with my meds. I shouldn't have. I was drinking for awhile. I stopped weeks ago. I was just angry and holding it in.
I will be doing the correct things to get myself well now.