I feel the same way about my family. That they would be better off without me around to bring the family down with me. I know my husband would be happier with a woman who did all the things I am supposed to do without being ill and not getting them done. I feel like my son would be better off with out a mother who is too ill to care for him the way that he deserves.

But I also have to remind myself that this is the way that I am. And that my husband has the right to leave. Instead he waits out the bad and helps me through it so that we can move onto the good. Is you GF supportive of you having BP? And why exactly do you feel that she would be better off with you?

We all take the ones we care about for granted. We become so accustom to them being there and doing for us that we get comfortable. It take a lot to realize that though. It shows that you have good character to know that you take her for granted. It means that you know she is not a given in your life. It means that you care for her deeply and only want her to have the best. So don't fret over it. I know that you and her can work through this and make the most of the time you have together!

how would you ever become a famous artist??? you dont have enough work completed yet. and BTW alcohol inspires pain, be careful with that stuff.

offer your heart and soul, the rest will follow xo

If she loves you that much, she Obviously sees something you don't right now, XFor :)

You don't Have to see it all the time. Promise. Right now you can't see anything of value in yourself, but other times you do, even if you hate yourself for seeing anything!

Take it on Faith, my friend, and keep walking. You are an Incredible person. :)

Lifes is already too short to loosen your grip.

Keep holding on and be aware that ... although you may see otherwise, your heart is good and your will is strong.

Love is a messy thing, and we tend to loose sight sometimes.
Dont beat yourself up for things you might have said or done in the past. Even if it was an hour ago. Turn the leaf and make a stand.

May the light shine in the darkest of places.

I have felt that way too in the past and even tried it with my meds as a chaser. The amount of self absorption that it took put me in a black hole. I saw no one but myself sliding into darkness. There were people who loved me but I thought nothing about them. I was zoned into wanting to end it all and it was selfish as hell. I understand you. Find a hobby, get a tdoc. Good luck!

I'm sorry that you are feeling bad. But this will pass. Obviously your girlfriend sees something in you that is worth hanging around for, or she wouldn't hang around. i know that you are a good person. You are just having a hard time seeing the good in yourself right now because of the bipolar. Don't let this stupid disease beat you, fight back.

that is the disease speaking. i know that voice very well.
try and see what your friends and partner see in you, and fight these feeling as hard as you can.
the booze makes it easier to make huge, and sometimes fatal mistakes.

you do have something to offer, you just don't see it right now. sorry that you're feeling so bad right now. i've been there and it's a very low place to be. so, i do wish you some peace soon.