Is there something to love about it? If anybody tells me the DO love it, I will notify the authorities, immediately. Something is seriously wrong with that person.

And yes, it is seriously draining. Are you doing anything about it, Malfeitor? Hope it passes soon.

I have those bad days too when I don't want to go on. But I remind myself, thanks to the meds I am having shorter and shorter depressive episodes and they always end. Remember, these bad times always end and you wonder why you ever felt so bad. Hope you get through it soon and if you don't please get help.

I take medication first off. I need to get back in to seeing a counselor cause that usually helps me. Other then that there nothing else I do so if there is anything anyone can advise I would love to hear it. I can’t seem to find anything that makes me happy anymore and it just gets worse!

Its very difficult. I walk up every day wishing i hadnt. Been like that atleast the last 16 years of my life. Hugs. We all have keep going.

It goes hand in hand with chronic health - I journal so I can look back and see I have better days - it's not easy to keep moving forward - ((hugs) polar

Yes I feel like that a lot . Big hugs.

Big hug for you Mal...... I'm sorry that you're struggling..... Usually I just have these days now if there's something else wrong in my life that needs dealing with

Have you seen your doctor?......xo

Sorry you are feeling this way. Yes, I get it. Counseling, exercise, and sleep usually help. Hope you are feeling better.

Feeling tired upon waking up. Just curious and just a thought. Do you snore? Maybe it's sleep apena. I was diagnosed with chronic sleep apnea and did a sleep study. Then I got a CPAP machine. I sleep ok now, and awake refreshed.

Sleeping with a CPAP mask can be a drag. You have to wear a mask and have a hose attached to that mask, so you cant turn around in bed too much and have to mind where the hose is. But I get great sleep. CPAP masks have gotten way more smaller and comfortable in recent years.

Just a thought.

I feel you. Between the illness and the side effects of meds every day can feel like the worst day of your life. I'm struggling right now too. Big hugs. Hang in there.

I think when you're working out finding effective medication it's time for baby steps

You sure don't feel good overnight..... finding other coping skills can make a big difference

I'm a believer in finding multiple types of Therapy together. But, I'm also a 31 year Chronic Pain Patient and am geared towards that type of Treatment plan as I use various different Therapies besides just medication to manage pain.

As you said yourself, things are better when your seeing a Counselor/Therapist, and it's important to find the right Therapist. For whatever reason, and I'm not a pigeon-holer, men have a harder time going to and staying in Therapy, in my experience, a majority of that has to do with finding the right Therapist. Its not easy to sit and spill your guts to someone in the first place....so it has to be the right someone. In my 28 years of BiPolar Disorder I've been through 17 Pdocs and I quit counting Therapist an long time ago.

My current Pdoc I've been with 11 yrs. now and he's the perfect combination of my personality traits that I need in a Pdoc. Unlike most, I get my Therapy from my Pdoc as well as Med Management. I can't really use Therapists effectively, because I used to work in that field and after a while it just turns into a sparring match (not on purpose, just slip into the mode) and I tend to make the bright shiny new ones cry. lol

I don't sleep much, usually from around 4:00a.m. to 8:00, somewhere in that range, then I get up and go to work. I have Cyclic Rhythm Sleep Disorder, my internal clock doesn't work, so my brain doesn't know when its supposed to go to sleep. I take meds to make sure I get that little bit. I don't wake up tired and feeling crapy, I just don't really care for morning. My Chronic Pain is Joint/Bone/Muscle related and pain is worse first hour of the morning when I've not moved for a while. So my first hour of the day is spent slowly getting my fingers and wrists to bend/move, then elbows, then knees, then anles/hips. 2nd hour is used getting up and getting legs to walk. 3rd hour, meds have kicked in and I take a 30 minute break and have a cup of tea. Then at 10:45 I get ready for work. I work as an Accountant 25 hrs. M - Th. at the office then from home Friday and Saturday.

The only exercise I can do is walking or pool work which I do in the evenings, my pool is heated so I can use it year round In summer I do a Spin in the Pool class...but I've not gotten brave enough to throw a Bike in my pool yet. lol

I use Slow Breathing Therapy, Relaxation Therapy, Biofeedback, My Pdoc's style is Dynamic and CBT. I've also done DBT and still use those skills. What helps me most of all is having a set schedule, and I stick to that, I don't break it. In my mind its like there is a serious consequence if I vary from the schedule...especially when I feel Depression coming on, because it only takes one misstep to throw myself out of whack and the Depression takes over, as you probably well know. So, I think you have to find things that work for you, and build a daily schedule, you don't have to be rigid, you fit what works....the important part is to stick to it....its not easy at first, but as you get used to it, it gets easier.

take care, sorry for the book.
Kat

Yes I can totally understand my depression gets worse every day it's so hard just waking up in the morning. Because I know I will have to struggle through another day. The holidays are especially difficult time of the yr for me . But these days it doesn't even matter. I hope soon we will see the light at the end of a very long tunnel. Hugs to you all.