What type of breakdown did you have? Are you on any meds at all?

none of us are 'mental'!! all of us have a physical disease called bipolar disorder caused by a breakdown in function of the seratonin, dopamine and noradrenalin receptors in the brain which can be helped by meds and therapy working together because of the symptoms that are caused.

didn't mean to imply that you said were 'mental'. sorry.

That was a lovely explanation of bipolar Irish!!!

Oh yeah Irish sorry I know that. I posted on here a few days ago that I wanted to be admitted. I was crying hysterically and had severe anxiety for hours. It was awful. I was scared of everything and didn't sleep for 2 days. It was after I tried seroquel. My t doc wants me to try acupuncture and massage therapy to calm down. It comes in waves the last few days. I thought for sure he would put me on a mood stabilizer.

You're not on any mood stabilizer?

No I've been on lamictal in the past which helped. I mentioned that to him. I've also tried trileptal but didn't have good luck with it. I get that my insomnia is my worst problem which is why I take trazodone but I just don't really feel right.

I'm not trying to doubt my p doc I've been seeing him for 8 years but I can't stop my waves of depression and anxiety and anger right now. I understand that why I'm anxious and depressed but I can't get passed it myself right now.

I'm seeing my t doc once a week right now which definitely helps. It's just frustrating though both my t doc and p doc told me to try to relax,enjoy the holidays,bake some cookies,etc. I feel like I couldnt even concentrate on following a recipe right now.

I have depakote prescribed by my neurologist for migraine prevention and he told me it wouldn't hurt me if I took that along with the trazadone. I never started the depakote because my migraines haven't been bad lately. I guess I just expected a lot more from my visit today because of how much I'm currently struggling.

My official diagnosis is bipolar 2 and primary insomnia.

take the depakote, give it a try. i used it for migraines and only after i stopped taking it, did i realize that i was more stable than i have ever been. i took it successfully for a couple of years after i was diagnosed and loved it.
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Oh I hope you're feeling better soon. Depression is terribly painful both physically and emotionally so if you're also dealing with physical issues, your pain is probably at its worst. I'm so sorry - I hope the acupuncture shows you some relief and relaxation. ((((gentle hugs))))

you know if it were me I'd pursue the getting back onto lamotrigine - you already know it works for you and it does wonders for bipolar depression.

only downside is that all pervasive anxiety when there isn't any reason can sometimes be low level hypomania - and lamotrigine is a little weaker there. I take seroquel at those times but I only need to take it for a few days.