Hi Jasmine, I have felt this way so many times. I really feel for you. Honestly I didn't want today to come because I had some commitments & responsibilities & I had so much anxiety over it, that it made me just not want tomorrow (today ) to come. But I have had countless nights over the past few years that I went to bed & just cried, and listened to sad, depressing songs, because I felt like no one understand, and I didn't think I would ever feel better. So, to answer your question I definitely did feel like this. Some days I have stayed in bed all day, and put off showering & doing the most basic of things, like eating, which I know is common. What I think is good is that you are asking this question & to me it seems like you want to get better. When I'm depressed I just go inside myself, I rarely try to reach out to others in this kind of way, so I think it's wonderful that you did that & I hope you find the support that you need. So what I did is just kept on waking up day by day & trying. Not everyday was great, some were absolutely horrible, and I just barely made it through (in my eyes). But now three years later (after the deep depression hit) I am doing so much better. I used to want to stop existing a LOT and now I feel like I don't feel that way very often at all anymore. So I just think you have to be gentle on yourself, keep trying & not expect to feel better in a day, if that makes sense. Sending you hugs :)

YesI have been where you are.,more than 10 times..Hold on,see and tell P Dr. Truth. Take the med,s .It will take time.so hold on .Meds,s will work, keep taking med,s. I will be thinking of you.

yes. it is very hard & when peeps try ta tell ya ta get outta bed when ya know u wanna try & cant!

ya its important ta keep movin. in my deep depression it was horrible. then i found it ta be myself creatin a habit. just layin around i got complacent & lazy.

we all know depression isnt laziness. its the hardest part of the illness. find ur happy place if ya can & focus on that :)

Yes I have had long depressions in matter of fact I am feeling blah at this very moment. I have no desire to get up and when I do make myself after 13 hours in bed I just can't imagine getting dressed or cooking a meal or just about anything at all. I have very hard time with this part of bipolar...sigh All I can say is hang in there don't give up, you will make it through this. All the best.

Thank you everyone, it means so much, BUG HUGS, love you guys.

I just went through a 3 year depression. Thought I would never come out eventually tried suicide. Now I am so grateful to be here.I :ake antidepressants now along with deppacote.This really worked well.Keep telling your doctor be really honest, Hang on don't do anything as I feel sure it will lift

I felt the same way when I was depressed. With medications and therapy both have helped. In therapy I learned that if you dont want to get out of bed, get out anyway, if you dont want to shower, shower anyway, if you dont want to go to class go anyway. I know that sounds easier than it is to actually do. It helps to remember that feelings are just that, feelings. We can let them control us or choose not to let them control us. It is all in our thinking. Wishing you the best.

Thank you so much Lynn and Suga! I am feeling some what better now. Suga, what you were talking about in your therapy in something I've been trying to put into practice since it was explained to me so well in counseling a week ago! Making myself socially interact has helped, even though sometimes it hurts when it is not as great an experience ad I'd like, but I am trying not to be so afraid of bad feelings, as you suggest, and know that it is only temporary :-) big hugs.

I understand your issue very well. I have been in a depressed state for about 6-7 years now. If I do cycle to a high it is so brief I do not even see it. One thing that has helped me is that I became a Christian at the age of 55. Now if you do not want this that is fine.

All I know is that reading the Bible, and going to a Non Denomination Church has helped me to cope.

Another thing I do is a hobby. I Metal Detect. I hunt for lost items in the dirt. Hobie's that make you concentrate on them and loose touch with your issue can really make a difference.

Also do you or have you tried to Journal? I do and it helps me also. Sometimes I rant, Other times I talk about my issue. Heck I even talk to my Mom who passed recently.

I wish you all the best. God Bless You.

yes, you are singing my song! I just keep going, like everyone else says. Sometimes I buy a lottery ticket and plan what I will do with all the money, but then I dont check the number because I don't want the disappointment!

I feel for you Jasmine. Maybe not the best suggestion for you. Whenever I feel severely depressed I catch on my sleep. Watch the Trisha show. At least I'm not as bad off as her guests are. lol

Thank you all!! Yes I am a devoted Christian, ty for reminding me that I want to read psalms and pray for people tonite! journaling, church, and sleep all are great ideas that I sometimes use. Mugwort, LOL about the Trisha show! HAHA sometimes it is ok to compare, for an ego boost as long as it stays with you ;) I am coping a little better....I appreciate you all, the Lord bless you! Hugs,

Jasmine,

Its so hard to figure out why these things are happening. I also have had 4 pretty bad concussions. Once a double concussion and went into seizures from my brain swelling that was 25 years ago. Sometimes I just cry and cry maybe something sad maybe not. I was diagnosed Bi-polar in 2005, I think the concussions might have played a part in that as well as my genes. My Dad & Brother are both Bi-Polar and I think my Grandpa was. I don't know how I get out of bed everyday either. I take my meds daily they seem to help take the edge off of either extreme depression or agitation or anxiety. I hope you feel better and try to keep your chin up.