If I told it wouldn't be a secret.

"Many admire, few know."
Hippocrates

My secret is that I keep my illness a secret at the moment, but now it's not secret. That's what keeps me from getting the help I need.Everything is rather foggy right now.

Do we cling to our illnesses the same way we cling to our secrets?

I didn't tell my boyfriend I was bipolar for a month and the antidepressant kill my libido. He was pissed that I hadn't told him sooner. He felt I had betrayed him for not telling him right away it's not a deal breaker but I think it doesn't help either.

I think that your secrets tell you how sick you can become if you let the demons inside you take over, but I also think that your virtues, the good things that you do, show how good you can become when you are well.

So can anybody get "well" by keeping the secrets that made them sick to begin with?

im with Enigma lol.

I don't think you can get well by keeping your secrets. Like my compulsive gambling. It had to come out, because the guilt was eating me up. Once it was out, stopping was easier. My other secrets are not mine to tell.

The kind I kept from my ex husband which is now why is my ex.

Right now I don't feel very sick, so I have no answer. When I'm feeling sick, I usually say that my secrets have to do with things that happened to me as a child.

Wow heretic, you really have me thinking here. I usually rattle off a response to posts but this one really makes me want to stop and think before I answer.

Really really good question.

What do you think heretic?

I have problems with logic and logical reasoning, but this is what I can say:


I think that some secrets need to be kept. I have often heard that we keep the door of our past open just open enough to ourselves so as not to forget the mistakes we made, but I think that telling everything is not a good idea.

I think that generally, we can say that we were wild when we were younger or that we just have different values or a different lifestyle. We can say in a general sense how we are without divulging everything.

I've had a long think about this. Secrets can be toxic but they can also prevent further harm.

I think secrets are harmful when you feel forced to keep them. Sometimes it can be a great healing relief to tell someone of your secret, but you have to make sure they are very trustworthy and can and will do no harm to you.

I have secrets that I keep from myself! I have a lot of writing that I did when I was manic that I have kept but refuse to read. It is so painful to read what I wrote and how psychotic I was. Humiliating and embarrassing.

I have a few secrets. One in particular annoys me where someone hurt me badly. I have told a few people with mixed results. Some have been supportive, others not so much. That hurt.

Sometimes secrets are good things. Its not always for the best for everyone to know everything.

If you have secrets that are keeping you sick heretic, can you tell someone anonymously to get some support?

Interesting answers Heretic and Mushroom.

I get morbid thoughts sometimes. I don't know why; like the story 'imp of the perverse'