Haha i'll jump in front of it.

Just kidding!

okay, i'm ready to end it. i can't take anymore of this damn crap. this aint living its existing, and that aint no kindof life.

You know what you need? a little bitta morbid humor.

You know i used to let out this evil laugh anytime anyone mentioned knives or weapons of mass destruction back when I was in my deepest depression?

So what a ya think getting hit by a train or jumping off a bridge, i'll pick the bridge. OD'ed before, it didn't work, its the easy way out, but that aint gonna work.

naw, I don't wanna OD. They shove charcoal in your mouth and it tastes bad for days!

How about... Oh I know. How about those FBI suicide pills? Dead in nine seconds.

I wonder if I'd have strange people show up at my doorstep if I tried to buy some online? hahahaha.

Okay now i'm just curious. No Mr. Agent Dude! i'm serious, I didn't wanna kill myself or anyone else! I just wanted to see what would happen!

*glance at my arms* Agent Dude: "You're coming with me." lol hahaha.

Good luck. I am under some major stress. Got a court date w/ the x. He not homeless at this time he's in jail. I will be seeing him in court.

Good luck. I am under some major stress. Got a court date w/ the x. He not homeless at this time he's in jail. I will be seeing him in court.

Good luck. I am under some major stress. Got a court date w/ the x. He not homeless at this time he's in jail. I will be seeing him in court.

Good luck. I am under some major stress. Got a court date w/ the x. He not homeless at this time he's in jail. I will be seeing him in court.

I'm with ya. I believe in God and Jesus and that there is a plan for each of us. But I believe I have already fullfilled mine and I am just waiting for the end.

Not making long-term goals, just having a heart beat doesn't make you alive.

No job, no insurance, resources will last maybe through out the year, and I enjoy very little out of life.

all aboard! oh, you know, i am here, and there, and not at all. although, i have to say, that i do give a shit about the positive things you say.

Chuggs, I beg to differ!! I appreciate all your posts and threads and your attitude NO MATTER if it is negative or positive!! We all go threw life crushing things we care about. However it is how you rebuild things is what makes us what we are!! Even thou you might think your positive attitude goes unnoticed and un cared for!! YOUR wrong!! Thanks chuggs for all you do!!

chuggs you know i care about you! i know a bit about what your going through from our talks! your a special man and you deserve the best, remember your goals you told me about! you have a big future ahead of you! stick to your plan and you will end up in an awesome life! dont let the world bring you down! with much love and hugs! catrina

Chuggs, I love ya and you have so much to offer this world. You are intelligent, handsome, gifted, talented, genuine, giving, forgiving... I could go on & on. Whatever you say you have crushed can be resolved and rebuilt. You will never be alone. Once you get settled (and you will), there are ways to get free meds. Suicide? Fuck that... I've tried it more than once and I'm so fucking glad I survived. You have too much to offer our world and yourself. That dark train you are speaking of are just the voices of doubt, fear and pain. Let's shine some light on that bitch and expose it for what it is.