yeah the lyrics that popped into my head are from red jumpsuit apparatus it just says

am i supposed to be happy
when all i ever wanted
comes with a price?

The song "fix you" by coldplay pops into my mind, it is a good descriptor of me right now. Sorry I can't remember all the words, but you can look up the song on youtube.

"you stab me in the heart and taste the blood from my blade" ozzy and lita

" Departure, Godspeed, bless his heart, Good Lord....
What a fuck-up, what a fighter "

REM..Departure

"but when we sleep will you shelter me from your warm and darkened grave?" good one blue.


Alejandro Escovedo is playing on my pandora right now. She doesn't live here anymore

find that one when you can.

Your sick of feeling numb, your not the only one, I'll take you by the hand and show you a world that you can understand.
Three Days Grace

Also..
I can't escape this hell, so many times I've tried, But I'm still caged inside, Someboby get me through this nightmare, I can't control myself.
So what if you can see, the darkest side of me, No one will ever change this animal I have become.

Three Days Grace

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change. I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong...

There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by...

They say I'm crazy but I have a good time
(Everybody say oh, yeah.....OH,YEAH)
I'm just looking for clues at the scene of the crime
Life's been good to me so far


Joe Walsh - Life's Been Good

Full of fear,
Ever clear.
I'll be here,
Fighting forever.
Curious,
Venomous,
You'll find me
Climbing to heaven.
Never mind,
Turn back time.
You'll be fine,
I will get left behind.

~Breaking Benjamin

I'm finding myself at a loss for words but the funny thing is, it's o.k.
The last thing I need it to be heard but to hear what you would say.
Word of God speak
won't pour down like rain
washing my eyes to see your majesty.
To be still and know that you're in this place.
To stay here and rest in your holiness
Word of God speak
I'm finding myself at a loss for words and the funny thing is - it's o.k.

It hasn't always been this way
I remember brighter days
Before the dark ones came
Stole my mind
Wrapped my soul in chains

Now I live among the dead
Fighting voices in my head
Hoping someone hears me crying in the night
And carries me away

Set me free of the chains holding me
Is anybody out there hearing me?
Set me free

~Casting Crowns

you cut me open and i keep keep bleeding love, i keep bleeding love... my hubs is killing me right now and i keep on bleeding love so this song really fits me at the moment

Jesus take the wheel. by Cari Underwood
We're just dust in the wind. i don't know the artist
If your gone through hell, keep on gone, you might get out before the devil even knows your there. i don't know the artist of this one either.

Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans---John Lennon

Mercy pure and simple.
Longing cold and hollow.
With sweet breath.
You'd come to warm me.
But I held on too hard.
To only a memory.
You lie there on the swollen ground.
Deserted in your heart.
Still longing for what yesterday's lost.
and for all that tomorrow might bring...
and for all that tomorrow might bring.

Mercy - Sarah McLachlin