good question. I always feel like a completely different person and can never understand why nobody sees it. weird!

The deepest part of me, the "soul" I guess, is the same .

But many things have changed for me .

I am much less confident than I was . I am more fearful. I worry more about the future.

I am less intelligent ....I have a befuddled mind. I was always so sharp and on top of things

Not so much anymore

I don't think of it as a re-making so much as a healing. After all I was perfectly fine before all the trauma.

I guess I always "tried again" after each devasting episode.

Now I am that remade person who is just continuing to bloom with each new day. It was when I got the full treatment including therapy and class and a desire to remake myself completely that this came about. I had to surrender fully before the remaking could occur and stick.

We all grow in our own time.

Although it is just really an improved more accepting of reality me.

I am in the process of remaking my life. It has been almost two yrs since I was hospitalized. I am scared about the future,3.-7/4 u do not have a job. I think it takes rime to rebuild.

I am finding myself coming out of the woods recently. Was married for almost 20 years and now on my own.
Time for a make over for sure. I have lost bunches of weight and feeling good about things for a change. Gonna take advantage while I can.
Wishing you well and good vibes for sure.

I like that word befuddled. That's me. I used to not be so...

I spent five years in and out of the hospital every month. Finally found a great pdoc and tdoc and it still took me two years to remake myself. But I have learned so much, I work now at a job where I help others, Im in graduate school, and my "episodes" are not nearly so often. I think everyone takes their own amount of time to get to that place where they have become a "new person". But for those of us with bipolar I think it is even harder and takes longer and we still have the illness to deal with daily. I am nothing like I was just a few years ago.

I feel somewhat different and changed after most episodes, varying degrees of it, of course.

It's kinda said in a way, I try not to often think of it. But I do think I'm changed a little more each time an episode.

Don't want little pieces of me chipping away.

I don't so much feel like a "different person" as I do exhausted emotionally and physically. I have to "re-strengthen" myself, re-evaluate what is good and bad for me, and how to take care of myself better. I work hard to build what I have, what I do, how I live, every single day. When I have an episode the work I have put in helps me stay stronger through it, I think.

I like all of the replies. I think that I am just tired of life. I used to make myself over and I think that I was trying to escape from myself.

I don't really run from myself anymore but I get tired, as SHelly4 said, of all of the games that offline people play.