Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
My head is a-buzz buzz buzzing with thoughts and numbers and days. Omg! Ahhh! Keep shking it to see if some of the thoughts will fall out. pardon any grammatical errors. My fingers can't really keep up. it just came on al of a sudden. i was trying to decide if i should do a short course in events planning since my school owes me money. that's if they'd transfer those funds to that account anyway. then i remembere i have some outstanding cheques but i am also in debt and the class strats in 12 days. i don't know when i'm getting paid. now i really want fries. so not good for you. too oily. been having lots of fried food lately. bad. what's the spanish word for oil? spanish was my original summer course but it got canceled. my school does that a lot. i wanna minor in spanish. yaay me. who's ever been to spain. heard it's nice there. myhair's in corn rows. can't wait to see how curly it'll be when i undo them. she's come undone, awesome book. can't remember the author. speaking of which i read this really good book last year but for the life of me i canot remember the title and i reallly loved the book. chocolate. mmm. another unhealthy choice. i dunno what to have for lnch today. what are you all having? my elbow is cramping up. that happens whenenevr iclean the fridge. well the office is really cold so thta could be it. or maybe it's the fact that i'm typing so much. i really should shut up now, shouldn't i? i wish my train of thought would stay on one tack and slow down. derailed train of thought. ha ha. how ya doin' everyone?
I've never been to Spain but I have read Michener's Iberia.
Here's a quote from my journals, 2010: "Bipolars are notorious for losing a train of thought...oh-oh. Here comes that Westbound idea smashing into a Northbound thought at top speed - peanut butter cups are Not the result, nooooo - it's an Avalanche in here!
"Snowballs from Heck, splattering suggestions at g-force, catapulting my consciousness toward the inevitable result: A Nap."
Yes, you may Well need a med that will help Quiet all that racket upstairs, but we Get it; I hope it does not interfere with your daily routine.
Some days, I would give Anything to be a bit more focused. :/
Self medicating helped but in the long run that was a 30yr long mistake. Now I use visualization techniques, breathing...and yes...music.
It sounds like you have a lot to deal with...coulda been the coffee...but it mighta been that mashup you have for your avi...I mean you obviously see it more than I do...but it certainly goes with your post.
Try finding some shade...or the sun if you prefer...somewhere quiet with lush cool green grass...lay down on your back and stare at the clouds...or just close your eyes for a while...breathe deep...and just be.