..stress can cause it..also drugs of course.

I had the spider thing. I have a phobia about them.

Not sure what to suggest, if it is the start of psychosis you need an anti-psychotic - do you have other symptoms of an episode at the moment or is it just the visual stuff?

Need to see your doctor.....

It's been a while for me . But I usually gave myself 3 days to struggle through this kind of episode...and yep..call your Pdoc

i have a spider phobia too, its torturous.

i have had a couple of very "uncontrolled" days. lots of irritability, irrational thoughts, and impulsiveness. not particularly flying high though so don't think its a mania at all. everything bad feels exaggerated but i don't feel depressed, i feel depressive but energetic.

its difficult. then these stupid visions on top.

Depressed / Energetic ?

Could be a Mixed episode...very uncomfortable to deal with...also can be a very dangerous time for a BP.

Once again, all I can advise is to call your Pdoc

i dont have a pdoc :(

I have agitated depression or scarily mixed states that cycle throughout the day, at my very sickest i saw a head in front of me with its eyes fixated on me and it floated around real funny..(was told that was a med reaction).

When im bad, i feel like a grab bag of moods that jumble around and bleed into each other....if that makes any sense? it might not, im in my mixed rapid cycle right now

justletme
i can totally relate to the grab bag.
i feel like its all going too quickly to an episode because literally from morning to evening things have flipped like a trip switch.
so fucked up.

Then go to the ER if it get to bad....I have not had that type of mixed episode. but hear things, and have seen things out of the corner of my eye. or something small run across. most time I feel things on me. like something crawling on me. or I will itch. weird I know.

nothing weird about that sweetheaven not on this board anyway. x

The day after I saw the head, i was hospitalized : ( :


(((((((((mush)))))))

This so sucks i know....this morning a good friend called we talked for about 10 min, nothing remarkable......she said she would call back and she did but by this time i was i full anxiety mode, didnt answer phone twice i wouldnt have been able to hold a coherent conversation, then a little after that i call her sobbing full of depression....i literally do not know how im going to feel in an hour, sometimes its mild and sometimes (like now) its hard and fast..

The only thing that makes it stop is a AP

i guess i need to talk to a professional.

ive been on anti-psychotics before they made me so fat it triggered bulimia. scared shitless of weightgain now.

I think visual hallucination/delusion is not a usual result of bipolar illness. Whatever medication you are on, if it's an SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) and this is the result, you need to see a psychiatrist who specializes in people who are unable to take SSRIs. This might be a symptom of another process. You KNOW they're not real, you're ahead of the game. If you don't have a psychiatrist, go the largest teaching hospital you can (within driving distance of up to 4 hours) and walk into the ER.

abilify and geodon are supposed to not make you gain- i just tried geodon, not a fit...

abilify- yes....i dont know if the pill itself made me gain weight. When i was real sick, i stopped eating- bones is all i was....as i started to feel better i ate more...was it the drug. or me on the road to recovery?

regardless, id rather have more junk in the trunk than to be sick again.

yeah i guess its sensible for me to get this under control until they become very strong and delusional. i have in the past been in control aware of them not being real, but that gradually wears down into a paranoid mess where everyone is following me and everyone is out to kill me.

its disturbing hate that feeling .x thanks for the advice x