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I just left my job screaming at everyone and throwing things , i am so angry and upset i dont know whether to cry or scream. i havent cut myself in over a year now , but i feel like im about to break that streak. i just want to run a knife through my skin. hoping the blood will make me feel better , feel human again. The sad part is I don't even know what the real reason is legitimate for me to flip the switch. Why does everything hurt so much. why cant i make the pain go away.
I wish you success in making life more manageable.
But you know what?? It's also not the end of the world.
I can't do or say anything to make you NOT cut yourself if it's what you're going to do, (I really hope you manage not to,) but I can assure you that just bawling at the guys at work on a Friday afternoon when you're feeling shite is pretty brave if nothing else. I'll bet not many of your pals would/could do it...
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If it's fixable, then an apology can work miracles, if not then hey, you managed to get that job, you can go on and get another!
Try to relax this weekend and forgive yourself for behaving badly.
Good luck
IP xx
Its been over a year? that is EXCELLENT! Im closing in on a year myself.
Take everything one moment at a time you dont have to take on everything at once. Punch some pillows maybe? Remember if it gets too intense you can always put ice on your skin, use a rubber band or draw with a washable marker etc.
Just breathe.
I'd say that's pretttty...prettty awesome.
Maybe to get you through this cutting craving you could take a sharpish pen and draw nice things all over your body. Sounds silly, right? Silly brings joy, though, and on top of it, if you draw hearts and "I love me"s all over, your body will know and it will get happier. Serious. There was a test done with simple water glasses and things that were written on the glasses. Upon microscopic observation, the glasses with "LOVE" and "HAPPY" and other nice words flourished out into snowflake like designs. The ones with bad words looked like shit. So on a level that small your body will know what you write on it. And it's similar to the sensation of cutting. Just an idea.
You could also take a masochistic, scalding hot shower with a scrubby exfoliater puff ball thing and really scrub hard.
Ooor try to find some good porn before the shower. :D