my sleep schedule got majorly messed up sometime around October and then when I got sick a couple weeks ago it made it much worse. So today I decided to go ahead and get out of bed on time and it was definitely hard. Hopefully the poor sleep schedule is what has contributed to my depression and after a couple weeks of being back on track I will feel better. Oh by the way Thanksgiving with the family went great as well as game day so I’m very relieved and thankful for that. I am going to also do something unnerving that I haven’t done in awhile and that is attend church this coming Sunday. Scary place for me to be honest but I’m not gonna let a couple bullies scare me off where their is overall good people. I have abandonment issues and I am very sensitive to rejection so I am gonna just shrug off those who don’t accept me and realize it is not me it is them. I am going to start counseling with the counseling minister next week about how to deal with this. He is also a counselor at a mental health clinic around here so he does have an actual counseling degree. So fingers crossed I will make some progress instead of hiding from the world.