His parents are very religious and made him marry a "decent" woman. But he's always be addicted to porn I'm just finding out after years of marriage. Oh fool that I am. The "Good wife". He had the best of all worlds I guess you can say.

well - did he answer your question? what's he doing up in the middle of the night? let him know you're not interested in him mocking you or deflecting - you want an answer. hrmph.

He said, he was using the bathroom and getting a drink of milk.

I don't want a man any longer. I want to be alone. I'm tired of having to respect men and then getting treated like mule shit

I hate that "Did you take your medicine question". It's almost like people are trying to shift blame to you when they say that. I would tell him you discussing this problem with him has nothing to do with your mood disorder and everything to do with his issues. Does he go to counseling?

He's an idea deflector. In Northern Ireland we refer to that as 'whataboutery'. (mainly in the context of Sectarian Politics)

I know how it is to be married to someone with porn addiction. Don't feel stupid. It took me awhile to figure it all out too seeing as he never let me use his lap top (said it was for work purposes only) and never left it at the house when he wasn't there. I felt like a fool when I figured it out and it made me feel less about myself as a woman for awhile until I finally got it that it wasn't about me and it was an addiction but it did affect how he treated women. I was so glad when we got a divorce! Not saying that's what is right for you. If he can admit he has a problem and get help things could be different. Mine stayed up all night looking at it too telling me he had "work" to do. Woke up one night and was half awake and he didn't see me behind him and I was appalled at the things he was looking at. It made me physically sick to my stomach HUGS!! Oh and I'm no prude but this stuff was "out there.".

I have the same issue myself. I'm so highly strung sexually, especially when I'm manic, the porno online is my first port of call.

Since installing K9 on My MacBook I've been as good as gold on that device, but I couldn't get a filter working on my Linux computer and have turned to it for my fix.

That's the one down side for me about being manic. I become 'foul Bachelor Frog'.

Yes nothing makes me angrier than when a loved one asks if I have taken my meds? Like what do people ask them if they are having a bad day? I feel like people who dont have BP think that for those of us who do its like we arent alound to have a bad day or get upset at all because we are on these magical meds that are supposed to make us shoot sunshine and rainbow out our asses! UGH! sorry but that pisses me off. Sounds like you need to do whats best for you free. If that mean a divorce then so be it. But you shouldnt have to be lookin over your shoulder all the time to see if hes lookin at porn or not. You have enough to worry about. Hugs.

Well playing devil's advocate here you wrote the porn addiction is in the"past" and he said he went to the bathroom and got some milk???... Soooooo I don't see a problem in the present or am I missing something??