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TC40
TC40

i am really overwhelmed. I just started a new job on January 3rd. I have been in SEVERE pain with my back, my mother has been a nightmare. And I’m withdrawing from major psych meds. I feel like I’m losing it. I cry ALL the time. I never cry, but it has been bad in the past four days. I even cried in the bathroom today at work. I tried to call my pdoc today, but I can’t get in until the 28th because I have to go after work. I don’t want to miss even more time than I already have. I missed three hours of work last week because I was in so much pain that I thought I was dying. I’ll be honest. I wish tonight God would take me. I don’t want to be here. I wish I could go to the ER to get help, but I have to go to work tomorrow. I feel like just packing my clothes up and leaving. I have already blocked my sister. My mother may be next. I’m so tired. 

keepswimming
keepswimming
I’m going to be straight up here. I apologize if I sound harsh but I come from years of experience. First I think you have said you need surgery on your back, So if this is the case you are worried about a job that is going to be hard to hold onto in your current state. Have you talked to your employer and let them know your situation and see if they are willing to work with you. If not than you need to just say ok I need to put myself on top of my list and deal with yourself mentally and physically, Only you know if you are going to keep your job through all these challenges. Don’t worry about your mother sister or whoever just go step by step to get yourself out of this situation, There is a way out just go step by step, I wish you well you can do this. Just put yourself first. Namaste
polarbare
polarbare
Tc40 please put your mental health first and see pdoc- you are no good to anyone, if you lose your mind-- first things first- put your needs first- like on a plane the mom puts oxygen on herself first, then on child-- important to come up for air -- we get overwhelmed when we look at big picture- break it down-- control what you can control first--- maybe you can get something else to manage your back pain -- hang in there ((hugs)) polar
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I would call your pdoc today and if you need to go to emerg…. You may need to go inpatient to get off of the meds you're trying to

If it effects your new job so be it TC.... You can't work like this and you'll be away from your mother.... Big hug..... xo
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