I know what you mean. I was a size 12 and 140lbs. I was fit. I walked 20 miles twice a week. I danced all the time. I could play DDR for two hours straight everyday. Now years later I am a size 20+ and 220 lbs. I can't play DDR the same and I don't walk anywhere. Looking at my old modeling pictures does the same. I try not to look at them because it reminds me of the body I had. All the things I could do with it that I can not do now.

I can relate. My weight issues came when I started getting medicated for bp, about two years ago, although I've had bp all my life. I've always been skinny, and looking back at my old photos, I feel like sometimes I regret seeking treatment. But try (and I know it's hard) not to let things like these deter you. I avoid looking at my old photos, but every once in a while I do. And I keep one in my wallet, and I see it every time and it kicks me in the butt saying so many things.

I feel your pain. I have episodes of binge eating.

I understand it's so hard to look at how you use to be I was 145lbs size 6-8 now I'm 170lbs size 12-14 it really sucks and it's hard to adjust I say every day my eating habbits will change, but they don't.
so i'm just letting you know your not alone!
hugs:]

I walk two miles a day and I am STILL 170.

IT'S THE MEDS !!!!!

I walke dinto my Pdoc 's office for the first time, weighting in at a svelte 129 Lbs ..5' 8 "...maybe even skinny ?

Litium, Depakote , and anti psychotics have added to my weight enormously ...my diet hasn't changed....I DO NOT snack, I walk.

Still the weight won't come off.
Pdoc says I should NOT expect it to come off..the realities, many people just gain ...and that's the end of the story.

Ev, you are an exception ( having the opposite problem)

What I would like to see come back (besides being a size 4/6)....my energy level has bottomed out

Meds or not, I hear ya, itzjustme...boy, I was just looking at pictures several days ago....my college wedding, dress still hiding "somewhere" in my closet....perfect size 8...I remember. :/

But we're Here, so there's just more of us to love!! lol


(it's only fun til its not...)

It is disheartening to look at old pics sometimes and think, damn wish I was there again. But we are HERE now and the only thing we can do are make changes to try and get to where we want to be, be it anything.

I feel your pain, I'm no way near what I used to be, but we have to still try and love who we are now and keep moving towards our goals. ox

i wish i had the opposite problem even tho i know it cuz be devastasting too....it just makes me sooo sick at myself like why did i listen...why did i start eating again..why did i start taking depakote..i shuda stayed on welbutrin *sighh* glad all u guys are heree

I've been there with you a zillion times. People suggest weight watchers and things like that, but honestly, I know that if I were to try anything that involved counting calories, I'd get obsessive about it again. Therefore, I completely avoid it. I've gotten to a point where I've accepted it.

I know it's not easy, but one thing that really helped me was to look in the mirror, and tell myself things that i like, and it builds self-esteem, which helps to get rid of self-consciousness about weight