Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
i have been doing well lately. i have been keeping a journal. making goals. and trying to understand the illness as it hits me. but today... today... my older brother is having friends over the house from college and they have all graduated since. it was my brothers birthday july 15th and they came to celebrate. my mom bought cases of beer for them to have while they are here. and i have taken advantage of this. from dinner time to late swim time to bed time i have snuck beers from the garage fridge .. maybe 4 or 5 or 6. i know i am not supposed to drink alcohol with my illness and i KNOW i am not supposed to drink alcohol in the house and i also know i am not supposed to drink because i am not 21. but i did anyway. and i am writing you all as i am a little tipsy and drunk. what was i thinking? i dono.. but my mom suspected it as i came into the TV room where she sat with my 9 year old sister. she asked me if i had drunken any "servesas" and i said no three times. she even said "last chance" and i again said no. now i'm in my room avoiding her and waiting until she goes to bed so she wont know. but i am afraid she already does. AH. have any of you experienced trouble with alcohol and the illness? let me know.
When I'm going manic or full blown, I turn into a lush and smoke as much pot as I can. My tolerance is unbelievable. After going off meds, I once drank a 24 of beer in one day. My hubby couldn't believe it either and I didn't even appear drunk.
The substance abuse just accelerated and made the mania more severe. So, Please Stop!
I know as a teenager, you want to party hardy, but like a teen with diabetes who can't eat chocolate, you have to be strong.
I'm pulling for you,
Sally
Some of the time, they're drunk, and although they might change their mind the next day, it stays in the back of their minds.
My husband also wanted to continue dating me after I figured out he was an alcohlic. (I had been in addictive relationships since birth). I had got my shit together re: addiction by that point.
I refused to date him. He went to AA to try and win me back, but of course that didn't work. Eventually, he sobered up for himself and here we are, still in love 9 years later.
So, even though he was refused my love while a drunk, and while he was plastered, it did sink in.