Kitty i'm really sorry you're having such a hellish time. I wish i could make it all better for you.

Keep venting here and maybe chatting....XO

I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I've been there and with your lack of sleep it makes things worse. Do you take anything to help you sleep?

My psych doc told me that it's better for me to sleep with a sleep medication than to not sleep or sleep erratically.

I hope you get some good REM sleep and feel rested when you wake up. That will help you to think more clearly and lift your mood.

You're in my prayers.

You've been going through a lot for a long time now.. I'm not sure of the history.. Are you in therapy?..Meds only do so much.. We often need more to go along with them
I hope you're able to get a good rest tonight and that tomorrow will be a better day...xo

So sorry kitty :( I often wanna run away too when I am feeling horrible, and I am in the same boat right now actually........I feel your pain (((((HUGS)))))

thanks everyone but I did not get much sleep again last night maybe 2 hours. I cant take this.I dont go see my pdoc until the 16th I think. My mind is so f***** up right now. I try to think more on the positive side but my thoughts get in the way. Nobody has any idea what hell I am going through right now. If you want to know more and I trust you I will tell you but thats it. I am basically on my own here.

I tried to lay down for a little bit this morning well that wasnt happeneing. My land line phone was ringing off the hook my cell phone was rining my dog was barking the contrater was working upsatirs hammering and sawing so I said forget it. So went out and volenteeed for a few hours handing out food and clothing and other things to people who was in need. That made me feel a little better anyway knowing I was helping others. Now back to reality again blah. We are expecting another bad northeater storm here again tomorrow so if by any chance I lose power I dont know when i will be back some people in town still dont have pwer in my town. So I think I will start running now maybe I can beat the storm..... bye.

I'm sorry that you aren't doing well. Yesterday night, R. was at a friends and A. was grocery shopping and I just prayed for all those folks on the EAstern Seaboard.

I hope that you will get through this.

Hugs, 4my

ok I feel myself slipping into a deep depression once again. I dont know what to do. My depression support group has been canceled due to the storm and I dont see my pdoc until next fri. I was supposed to get blood work done but cant do that now because of the storm who knows when I will get my medicaid now maybe next year? I feel so alone and so disconnected I guess you could say. I can not sleep worth the darn anymore. I am lucky if I get 2 hours a night anymore and this makes me very on edge. I am trying so hard to keep it together but I feel like I am going to lose it soon and breakdown. owell not much I can do at this point anyway.

Sending hugs I know you are dealing with a lot, and the weather sure isn't helping
Hang in there

just thought of something. I remembered I had some pain meds left from when I had my gallbladder out maybe i will take a few before i go to bed so i can sleep yes thats an idea.

I hope you get some sleep soon. I know that when I didn't get the proper sleep I feel down in the dumps too. Also it's much harder to deal with life when sleep deprived.

well I just took an ambien plus a percocet plus my normal meds yey i will sleep tonight..........

i hope that by now you're snoozing away..((((((Hugs))))

not snoozing yet but getting close me getting sleeeeeepy

ok now i am getting loopy and crazy i think i must go to bed before i do something stupid........... I am feeling no pain right now wahhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooo ok GN