I’m just not feeling well. I’m very depressed and having severe anxiety problems. I really wish I could go inpatient but I know if I go to the ER they’re just going to turn me away, so I will just sit here and suffer. I am supposed to be starting a job on Monday as a school bus aide. It is terrifying me, because I am sure that I’m just going to fail again. I had really bad suicidal thoughts last night. I just don’t think anything is ever going to be right again for me. So tired of this. I don’t know what to do or what to think. I’m not even going to consider going to the hospital. Does anybody have any other suggestions for me other than going to the hospital?
Are you guys?
I’m seriously doubting my diagnosis. So many of you are doing poorly or struggling. But I feel fine! I feel normal and happy and cheerful and creative. But if I don’t have bipolar then wouldn’t these meds be making me crazy? The thought is there: I am stable because I am on medication. I just don’t know