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faithtofly
faithtofly
so im not doing to good i have this trial coming up next week oct 4th to put my sexual abuser away and ever since a week ago after reading the case file from the DA office its just been totally fucking with me i cut up my leg 3 days ago and now im just like i cant take anymore everything hurts my head is so overwhelmed and i feel him everywhere i smell him , i just want to give up. I dont have any stress benzos anymore so ive just been drinking the hospital is out of question. IM fucked.
Community Leaderacuriousfish
acuriousfish
I'm so sorry, I don't have any real advice for you - I can't imagine what it is like. I suppose you have tried ice or elastic bands instead of cutting?
tommymott
tommymott
What a tremendous amount of stress this is all causing you. Can you talk to a crisis counselor, trusted friend or therapist?
Getting some relaxing meds would be good too. Even the otc valerian would do some good. Please be gentle with yourself.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sorry you are going through such a rough time and are hurting so bad. I hope things calm down and get better. Wish I could do something to help. (((hugs)))
deleted_user
deleted_user
Ouch, unfortunately I have to feel you on the cutting thing - I left a collection of them up my arm a month ago during an episode :( - but I hope you are feeling better. Sometimes you do what you got to do to survive, you know? *hugs* It WILL get better!
jimlucky1
jimlucky1
Call you pdoc and exlpain whats going on.
deleted_user
deleted_user
maybe you could call your pdoc, mine is very helpful when these kind of things come up, drinking doesn't sound like a good solution, i know i drink when i'm upset, but it's usually just one or two wine coolers or glasses of wine
deleted_user
deleted_user
faith, do you have a tdoc? Mine is really good at helping me with some coping strategies when I feel like this to keep me out of the hospital. This feeling REALLY sucks.

curious has some really great ideas. I find splashing my face with ice cold water helps when I get these urges. Sometimes, doing the OPPOSITE of what I feel like doing helps. I mean something soothing like a bath or applying a flavored lip balm or scented lotion.

I really hope you feel better soon!
deleted_user
deleted_user
It sounds like a rough situation you're in. I pray things will go well for you. Do you have a pdoc that you go to?
deleted_user
deleted_user
The issues you are coping with are extreme and a doctor should be able to help in one way or another.I really do think you need some extra help because you are hurting yourself by cutting and drinking,very self destructive behaviors.I wish you the best,try and find a counseler that you can open up to and then maybe they can help you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I'm very sorry that you are going through this! I will keep you in my prayers!!!
CarlaBent
CarlaBent
Can you call your pdoc and get some benzos or something else to tide you over? Hang in there. This is the worst it's going to get, probably. Keep your eye on the prize. I hope he gets what he deserves. While that won't make you happy, it should give you some closure. Good luck.
deleted_user
deleted_user
so sorry you're going through this. you don't deserve it at all. I agree that calling your pdoc and getting some benzos might help. Wishing you peace and comfort during a painful time. Be kind to yourself.
JennS
JennS
what a terrible thing to have to go through. because of our messed up justice system, we have to live through it over and over again just to put someone away.
deleted_user
deleted_user
so sorry you're going through this. wishing you peace and comfort xxxx
lostmyselfsomewhere
lostmyselfsomewhere
I am so sorry you are reliving this. I wish you could find the strength (hatred) to want the f--ker to go to prison and get butt f--ked! I am not in a position to put my abuser in prison. I however will be the one dancing on his grave at his funeral, then I plan on spitting in my f--king mother's face. Could you possibly get some meds because of the trial? Good luck and best wished. My prayers are with you.
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