Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

I still dream about him now and again and it feels real, like we're having a good talk and I wake up and expect him to be here. In that last month he was pretty out of it, on lots of heavy drugs, palliative care. but once in a while he'd come out of it and we'd have some good conversations...those are the times I dream about now and again.
Sorry you feel agitated. I hope the day has felt more peaceful as it went on. Be kind to yourself - that was a difficult experience.