Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Nights are getting hard for me again.....I went off my Abilify about a month ago because I felt it was making my phobias, (afraid to venture to far from home, fear of driving) worse....I was right it was because AFTER I weaned very slowly off those phobias went away.
I really wanted to stay away from the AP's and the "fattness" that they have caused me over the years....thought I could do it but now nights are getting harder for me and I am feeling as if people are out to get me......sigh
I'm trying not to totally lose it right now....took my klonopin and actually and extra one because this is bad tonight. I don't like this at all....feeling very alone and unsettled right now.
I did just start therapy again and will see a new pdoc in June.....I have a pdoc now but since starting therapy with this new place they want me to see their in house pdoc, I told them I would check her out and see what I thought.
I'm pretty upset over feeling like I am, and I had high hopes of staying off the AP's too and that is getting blown right out of the water now. sigh I'm trying not to hate myself because of all this.....but I'm beating myself up pretty good tonight. Not sure what to do here......
I really wanted to stay away from the AP's and the "fattness" that they have caused me over the years....thought I could do it but now nights are getting harder for me and I am feeling as if people are out to get me......sigh
I'm trying not to totally lose it right now....took my klonopin and actually and extra one because this is bad tonight. I don't like this at all....feeling very alone and unsettled right now.
I did just start therapy again and will see a new pdoc in June.....I have a pdoc now but since starting therapy with this new place they want me to see their in house pdoc, I told them I would check her out and see what I thought.
I'm pretty upset over feeling like I am, and I had high hopes of staying off the AP's too and that is getting blown right out of the water now. sigh I'm trying not to hate myself because of all this.....but I'm beating myself up pretty good tonight. Not sure what to do here......
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
Be kind to yourself and know you are trying to find a balance and you have started therapy so, these are all good steps to keeping you on the right path. I do hope you get some relief and if you can maybe focus on all the good things you have been doing to help push those thoughts out of your head until you can either restart the AP or maybe there is something else?
I think to be aware of how you are feeling is a positive and beating yourself up can amp it all up. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.
Take care and again I'm sorry you are having a difficult time. (((Hugs)))
I'm trying to get rid of the negative thinking here....ugh! I know it doesn't get me anywhere but feeling worse. Klonopin is easing up the anxiety a bit....tg.
Thanks for the hug, I need that right now!!
I agree with Banshie.. Be kind to you.. You deserve it and Im so sorry you're struggling my friend..xo
i don't know what i can add, but i just wanted to give you a big bear-hug and i hope you feel better soon.
is there a chance you can bump your pdoc appointment up a few weeks? maybe phone them and explain it's urgent?
Thanks for the support, it means alot to me. ox