I'm new here and unsure how much to post. Making oneself vulnerable is scary, and my experience in the past has been rejection when showing/sharing my true self with others. I have lost many friendships and connections to several members of my family as a result of my BPD 2. I do see a psychiatrist and am on meds, but I do not see a counselor or therapist. I can't financially afford both meds and therapy so I have to go with the shrink/meds only. I am in the process of trying to get on disability in my state, and after a year and a half of paperwork, lawyer, denial of my application, appeal filed, I finally have a hearing date in September. The anxiety of that upcoming court appearance is making my already challenging existence even more fraught with fear and worry. I have not worked for over 5 years, and I have to rely completely on my boyfriend and mom to support me. My depression is intensifying again because I see myself as being more trouble than I am worth. With no job or career I have no purpose aside from daily survival. I just don't see myself as being of any value to anyone. I just "need" and "take." I have the heart of a giver, but my emotions are always so close to the surface that I can't interact with people in a "normal" way. And the isolation is so polarizing. I barely have any connections to the outside world. Are you feeling the warmth of my sunshine from this introductory post of mine? That's me. Just a little ray of sunshine wherever I go. :-)
Any one take or have taken depakote? I just started and was wondering your experience with iy
My nephew is still in hospital for collapsed. He was transferred to a larger hospital with a pediatric pulmonology team although he is in his later teens. Just came out of his second surgery and it went well according to doctor. They filled the little bulbs (alveoli) in his lungs with saline to try and get them back to normal. They take chest xrays every morning. They also inserted a...