My life has always been a series of ups and downs. Periods in my life where i find myself, lose myself, f up, fix things. Long periods where i fall apart, get into a deep depression destroy myself and life so bad that I have no choice but to try to get it together. This has been going on since I was 11. I am now 33. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 at the age of 26. Right now I am going through a serious depression. I was doing so good I think for about 2 months or 6 weeks. I had my little moments but I was doing so good. Then here comes this depression this heavyness. Not wanting to leave the bed not wanting to feel just be numb. This has been going on for about 2 months now. It seems I will never have a normal life. I feel as if I will never be or accomplish anything because things always seem to fall apart. I always seem to fall apart. It is just really hard to live life.
i have to make routine in my life instead of jumping up to whatever place i feel like my discharge from my doc depends on this among other things which is not going to happen i have not been stable for 30 or 40 years so unless they come up with a mood stabilizer that may work so there is is 1 yr with no moodswingsnow it is getting worse i have been taking a cab to crfafgt store spendin g money...
Hi. I just want to connect with someone. I'm home isolating.